Venting i really dont know what to do anymore

[c4di]

my life is objectively getting better but im not, so i cant keep up. everything takes and insane amount of effort to do and i get no sense of reward at the end, doing anything feels so horrible.

when things were worse at least i felt a little better, it wouldn't have mattered because i couldn't do anything about it anyway but wait for my circumstances to change, but now that they did its on me to do the rest of the work to fix my life, and if i couldn't it'd be because of my own failure. but how am i supposed to do anything when im like this? i cant even make a small conversation without feeling so fucking exhausted. im really not exaggerating when i say everything feels like a chore.

whats the point in living if i will constantly feel tired without a break? even if things did work out for me, i dont think I'll ever not feel exhausted in. i really dont know what to do because this is ruining my life, ive spent the last 3 months trying to get myself to do really minor stuff but i still haven't done any of them. im so tired, i really dont want to be here anymore

 

[dirkw83]

Well, you can do what I like to do: just do the absolute minimum possible at all times. And reward yourself for doing things, like with food or whatevers you like.