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The idea of being a virgin made me rush to losing it, and now I regret losing it. He was 60, and I'm very young compared to him even tho I'm legal. Idk why I did it I feel stupid and I want to fcking kill myself so I don't get flashbacks of it ever. I probably did enjoy it. Idek at this point. I was groomed by him
 
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It sounds like an unsettling experience. I'm sorry you went through that.
 
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The idea of being a virgin made me rush to losing it, and now I regret losing it. He was 60, and I'm very young compared to him even tho I'm legal. Idk why I did it I feel stupid and I want to fcking kill myself so I don't get flashbacks of it ever. I probably did enjoy it. Idek at this point. I was groomed by him
I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I get it, I didnt want to die a virgin. I was planning on killing myself when I was a kid, 12 to be exact. I ended up getting raped while I was under the influence by my girlfriend at the time, and only recently I figured out that it was rape. I somehow forgot that sex with someone sober while you're under the influence is rape. she was a month older, but she was never on drugs, and never drank. I, on the other end, was smoking weed 24/7, doing 1000mg of dxm, and drunk out of my mind. now, all I want is to be a virgin. I'm a celibate now, and honestly, the stress of being a virgin is no more once you call yourself a celibate and romanticize it. I'm really sorry you had to go through that.
 
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