Venting i need to die because i will never be perfect for him

[coolgal82]

Oh that might be too much info. That's sort of weird he sees you as a daughter. Is he much older than you? If so I would say that might not be a good idea. You're probably going to be fine and judging by how long the relationship has gone on he probably has seen your pictures and you've seen his. Probably nothing to worry about. Men are pretty easy. As long as you're cute he probably doesn't care at all that you don't have social skills and it might even be a positive.

he's not that much but he is alot more mature and i'm basically mentally a child in alot of ways still lmao

 

[I_go_in]

he's not that much but he is alot more mature and i'm basically mentally a child in alot of ways still lmao

Yeah you just probably shouldn't post on suicide forums where people who are at the end of the line post and learn how to die. You seem like a normal young girl. You'll be fine. My best advice would be to just leave this forum and never come back. You have a long life ahead and you'll be fine with or without this dude you met on the internet. I'm not a woman so I don't know how much the pain of being rejected hurts from that perspective but you seem like a cute young girl with a nice future. No reason to be here. Just work it out with the guy you love and you'll be fine. Even if it doesn't work out you'll be fine. Suicide is a last resort for people who have no other choice it's not just a Tehe fun time on the internet. Have fun with your boyfriend little lady, I'm sure you're not ugly or fat or whatever you think you are. Go live your life to the fullest. Okay? (And the daughter thing makes me believe you're both into loli lol). Also don't put "it" as a pronoun as it's degrading. You're a lady not an object even if you think it's funny. You're gonna be just fine.

 

[coolgal82]

Yeah you just probably shouldn't post on suicide forums where people who are at the end of the line post and learn how to die. You seem like a normal young girl. You'll be fine. My best advice would be to just leave this forum and never come back. You have a long life ahead and you'll be fine with or without this dude you met on the internet. I'm not a woman so I don't know how much the pain of being rejected hurts from that perspective but you seem like a cute young girl with a nice future. No reason to be here. Just work it out with the guy you love and you'll be fine. Even if it doesn't work out you'll be fine. Suicide is a last resort for people who have no other choice it's not just a Tehe fun time on the internet. Have fun with your boyfriend little lady, I'm sure you're not ugly or fat or whatever you think you are. Go live your life to the fullest. Okay? (And the daughter thing makes me believe you're both into loli lol)

i am definitely ugly and fat, and have alot more problems that like lead me here (including these but these are just like one manifestation of them) (also no comment on the last bit)

 

[I_go_in]

i am definitely ugly and fat, and have alot more problems that like lead me here (including these but these are just like one manifestation of them) (also no comment on the last bit)

Idk, my sister said she was ugly and fat and she was really pretty and skinny. I know beauty standards does a number on girls these days. I think you should just live with your boyfriend and you'll be fine together and he's lucky to have you.

 

[coolgal82]

Idk, my sister said she was ugly and fat and she was really pretty and skinny. I know beauty standards does a number on girls these days. I think you should just live with your boyfriend and you'll be fine together and he's lucky to have you.

well i'm not her, i am objectively ugly cus idk how to take mare of myself and overweight (95kg) but trying to lose it (though failing and now im looking into glp1 agonists)
also idk how the logistics of me moving there will work cus i have no money and am on universal credit and i am also just terrible at anything like that that involves planning and efort (like my mum still has to book appointments and stuff for me and if she doesnt remind me about them i will forget)

 

[I_go_in]

well i'm not her, i am objectively ugly cus idk how to take mare of myself and overweight (95kg) but trying to lose it (though failing and now im looking into glp1 agonists)
also idk how the logistics of me moving there will work cus i have no money and am on universal credit and i am also just terrible at anything like that that involves planning and efort

Why do you think you're ugly? Are you disfigured? I'm just going to give you tough love from now on. I don't believe you.

 

[coolgal82]

Why do you think you're ugly? Are you disfigured? I'm just going to give you tough love from now on. I don't believe you.

disbelieve me all you want but it's still true

 

[I_go_in]

disbelieve me all you want but it's still true

You probably have a face that is just fine and normal. Weight can be lost.

 

[jengablocks]

helo this is my first post but umm i know people have different needs but its kind of weird that there are conditions to u being able to date him ,, like if i loved someone like that i wouldnt need to wait for some circumstances to be met. like it sounds like he's your whole world but would he move to a different country for u?

i totally get being really fixated on one person and afraid of disappointing them but someone who likes u will like all the bad stuff too so i wouldnt worry about that part. if it's not meant to be then thats ok, theres 8 billion of us on the planet or something

 

[coolgal82]

helo this is my first post but umm i know people have different needs but its kind of weird that there are conditions to u being able to date him ,, like if i loved someone like that i wouldnt need to wait for some circumstances to be met. like it sounds like he's your whole world but would he move to a different country for u?

i totally get being really fixated on one person and afraid of disappointing them but someone who likes u will like all the bad stuff too so i wouldnt worry about that part. if it's not meant to be then thats ok, theres 8 billion of us on the planet or something

i think theyre fair conditions, like the other main one was to cut down on my drug use especially cus like one of his exes iirc died of an od so that had him really worried and im like working on cutting it down, i havent used for a few months and when i go back to using it'll be like only on weekends probably

also like if it isnt meant to be then i will just kill myself lmao

 

[Dome42315]

OP, how long have you known this guy and how long have you two been talking talking? Moving countries is difficult, and I hope both of you are super committed into the relationship by the time you choose to move.

 

[coolgal82]

OP, how long have you known this guy and how long have you two been talking talking? Moving countries is difficult, and I hope both of you are super committed into the relationship by the time you choose to move.

about a year or two for both, and like i definitely am

 

[jengablocks]

i think theyre fair conditions, like the other main one was to cut down on my drug use especially cus like one of his exes iirc died of an od so that had him really worried and im like working on cutting it down, i havent used for a few months and when i go back to using it'll be like only on weekends probably

also like if it isnt meant to be then i will just kill myself lmao

oh thats fair ! being clean for months is rly impressive but that just makes me more worried that youre doing everything for him when he wouldnt do that for u . obv i dont know u or him but its like an important thing to keep in mind..

 

[coolgal82]

oh thats fair ! being clean for months is rly impressive but that just makes me more worried that youre doing everything for him when he wouldnt do that for u . obv i dont know u or him but its like an important thing to keep in mind..

i'm only clean cus my parents forbid me from buying any for like a bit lol. also like idk even if he wouldnt i would do literally anything for him