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d4isy

d4isy

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May 30, 2023
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i can't do this anymore. i just can't. i'm only around because i don't have a good method. but fuck it. people have ctb'd all sorts of ways. i guess i have to risk it. my method is partial using either a belt or bedsheet or any ligature i have that can hold my weight and closing my window on it. i could actually do full from my window since it's high enough but i'm scared the ligature won't hold or that the window frame will come off its hinges or something. i can't live on like this. my brain's fried and i'm ugly as shit. i'm just useless garbage.

i wish i could at least fulfill my dream of moving countries but i'm broke and incompetent. i'm probably autistic and i have severe social anxiety; moving is such a daunting task to me cause of all the confusing paperwork and stuff. so i gotta let that dream die, just like every other dream i've ever had.
 
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2muchpain2

2muchpain2

Experienced
Feb 27, 2025
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i can't do this anymore. i just can't. i'm only around because i don't have a good method. but fuck it. people have ctb'd all sorts of ways. i guess i have to risk it. my method is partial using either a belt or bedsheet or any ligature i have that can hold my weight and closing my window on it. i could actually do full from my window since it's high enough but i'm scared the ligature won't hold or that the window frame will come off its hinges or something. i can't live on like this. my brain's fried and i'm ugly as shit. i'm just useless garbage.

i wish i could at least fulfill my dream of moving countries but i'm broke and incompetent. i'm probably autistic and i have severe social anxiety; moving is such a daunting task to me cause of all the confusing paperwork and stuff. so i gotta let that dream die, just like every other dream i've ever had.
op I hope you are at peace now. I'm sorry this post did not get any engagement.
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
378
also fantasised a lot about moving countries
but everywhere is just the same hell
except maybe a few ultra rare places like Japan or Switzerland
 
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[Lord Void]

[Lord Void]

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Sep 14, 2025
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At least in Switzerland they have dignitas
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,344
At least in Switzerland they have dignitas
U still have to get approved , travel there a few times to get approved by a doctor( more thousands of dollars in plane and hotel). And an additional at least $10,000 . Many requirements. U still have no choice is in this world u still have to wait to be approved by doctors even in Switzerland

They won't even allow the sarco suicide pod in Switzerland nor in any country even though it's ready to go.

I don't even want to talk to anybody much less beg for approval. If im suffering why can't I hire someone local to assist me at a cheaper price or buy a few bottles of nembutal or use the sarco today? Cause they made all that crimes
 
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[Lord Void]

[Lord Void]

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Sep 14, 2025
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U still have to get approved , travel there a few times to get approved by a doctor( more thousands of dollars in plane and hotel). And an additional at least $10,000 .
Yeah I know. Not very accessible sadly but it's something I guess
 
FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

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Nov 25, 2024
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Sorry for your pain OP. I'm curious as to which country you would've wanted to move to and why, if you don't mind sharing.
 
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DoAnythingMore

DoAnythingMore

Remember me
Jan 29, 2025
36
I'm sorry to hear you feel this way. Out of curiosity, do you have any hobbies?
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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sadly still here :/ my method isn't reliable
Most aren't. It's so sad. What is the point of all this? And why make those of us that wish to be done suffer to carry on?
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
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Most aren't. It's so sad. What is the point of all this? And why make those of us that wish to be done suffer to carry on?
Because there's not much money to be made off of dead people.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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Because there's not much money to be made off of dead people.
That's true. But also, your body fights you, literally. That's the worst part. But easy access assisted suicide would be amazing.
 
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[Lord Void]

[Lord Void]

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Sep 14, 2025
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U still have to get approved , travel there a few times to get approved by a doctor( more thousands of dollars in plane and hotel). And an additional at least $10,000 . Many requirements. U still have no choice is in this world u still have to wait to be approved by doctors even in Switzerland

They won't even allow the sarco suicide pod in Switzerland nor in any country even though it's ready to go.

I don't even want to talk to anybody much less beg for approval. If im suffering why can't I hire someone local to assist me at a cheaper price or buy a few bottles of nembutal or use the sarco today? Cause they made all that crimes
Can you explain what a sarco suicide pod is?
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,344
Can you explain what a sarco suicide pod is?

Philip Nitschke "PN" brought forrth N from D nembutal online. D was arrested in 2022. PN discovered the SN method. almost all SN sources gone and the one he linked in the PPH. PN made the sarco and they arrested some people in switzerland for using it . it worked but no one can use it because we live in an evil world , an extreme suicide prohibition state , a prison . we are slaves


 
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DemonicAngel

DemonicAngel

Another brick in the wall.
Jan 21, 2021
84

Philip Nitschke "PN" brought forrth N from D nembutal online. D was arrested in 2022. PN discovered the SN method. almost all SN sources gone and the one he linked in the PPH. PN made the sarco and they arrested some people in switzerland for using it . it worked but no one can use it because we live in an evil world , an extreme suicide prohibition state , a prison . we are slaves


Wait are you saying that D who was a source of N got arrested? If so how do you know?
 
ventiswine

ventiswine

a mistake
Oct 1, 2025
12
i can't do this anymore. i just can't. i'm only around because i don't have a good method. but fuck it. people have ctb'd all sorts of ways. i guess i have to risk it. my method is partial using either a belt or bedsheet or any ligature i have that can hold my weight and closing my window on it. i could actually do full from my window since it's high enough but i'm scared the ligature won't hold or that the window frame will come off its hinges or something. i can't live on like this. my brain's fried and i'm ugly as shit. i'm just useless garbage.

i wish i could at least fulfill my dream of moving countries but i'm broke and incompetent. i'm probably autistic and i have severe social anxiety; moving is such a daunting task to me cause of all the confusing paperwork and stuff. so i gotta let that dream die, just like every other dream i've ever had.
i have had the exact dream and im almost in the exact situation:") i get so envious of those in better counties, how they got this so easily. obv they still face hardships but it's like one thing to not worry about at least
 
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