i miss the bus every time

[verminnnn]

i've tried to commit suicide 10 times and i've never been successful. it's not that i don't want to die - it's that i'm so exhausted by life that i can't put in the effort i need to actually get it done.

does anybody else feel that their life is so bad that they can't bear to live anymore, but they aren't able to die? i wish there was some low effort form of catching the bus, so that i could do it without stretching myself too thin

 

[Lotus1818]

I feel your pain. What were some of the methods you tried? Are you looking for a new method or did you just wanted to vent.

 

[Astral316]

My life is that bad, but if I settled for "I can't ctb" I'd descend into full blown panic attacks.

 

[ninthhokage]

I completely understand how you feel. I think a low effort method would be SN. I wanted to do CO, but didn't want to go through the process of lighting up charcoal and finding a safe place to do it. Already tried partial suspension multiple times, but was never able to pass out.

 

[Mizzmini45]

what kinds of ways did you try already?

 

[verminnnn]

what kinds of ways did you try already?

I feel your pain. What were some of the methods you tried? Are you looking for a new method or did you just wanted to vent.

i've overdosed twice, tried to hang myself once and tried cutting my wrists (with the intent of dying - i have a self harm addiction but that's a separate issue) seven times. i'd like a new method, but preferably one where i could do it in the wilderness so i could be surrounded by nature while i go - i've been thinking about n but i don't know enough about it to be able to solidly say that's what i want.