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Liebestod

Liebestod

Death is near
Mar 15, 2025
685
About two weeks ago a member started a conversation with me after I replied to his post asking for links for a substance. The conversation spanned until Friday night (October 10th) the day the member's package came. The member hasn't been active since they confirmed to me that the substance arrived. With my help this member was able to successfully order and receive the substance and most likely ctb with said substance and a benzo. If this is true then I actually helped someone die. This substance is more potent than fentanyl so no it's not SN. If you were active in the threads for the past month you probably know what the substance I'm talking about is. But I don't know how to feel. The pro life stalkers of this thread probably think I'm a murderer for helping someone ctb but I feel like I helped someone escape this prison planet and his problems he had. RIP to CM (member's username initials) if you successfully ctb.
 
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batmanreal

batmanreal

very normal guy
Sep 9, 2025
80
you're definitely not a murderer. that member was set on their decision, they would have found that source with or without your help; it just would have taken longer. you helped them achieve peace quicker, that's all.
 
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socksnsandles

Experienced
Oct 7, 2025
291
i could see why you might feel guilty, but you shouldnt. dont infantilize CM. he ordered it, he took it. he would have done it with or without your help.

if anything, be proud you helped the guy do it in a peaceful and dignified way
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

Death is near
Mar 15, 2025
685
i could see why you might feel guilty, but you shouldnt. dont infantilize CM. he ordered it, he took it. he would have done it with or without your help.

if anything, be proud you helped the guy do it in a peaceful and dignified way
I never felt guilty in fact I am kind of proud.
 
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rs929

Warlock
Dec 18, 2020
785
I don't think there's an ultimate and definitive answer to this matter.
 
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
Mar 28, 2025
678
you are not a murderer. That user made choice :(
 
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TooMuch.

Member
Aug 1, 2025
62
About two weeks ago a member started a conversation with me after I replied to his post asking for links for a substance. The conversation spanned until Friday night (October 10th) the day the member's package came. The member hasn't been active since they confirmed to me that the substance arrived. With my help this member was able to successfully order and receive the substance and most likely ctb with said substance and a benzo. If this is true then I actually helped someone die. This substance is more potent than fentanyl so no it's not SN. If you were active in the threads for the past month you probably know what the substance I'm talking about is. But I don't know how to feel. The pro life stalkers of this thread probably think I'm a murderer for helping someone ctb but I feel like I helped someone escape this prison planet and his problems he had. RIP to CM (member's username initials) if you successfully ctb.
No, you 100% did the right thing. People's rights are being taken and/or they are just being scooped up off the streets to be taken to torture prisons in some places right now. For all we know you kept someone from being put through agony.
 
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Yavannah

Yavannah

Autistic & miserable
Jul 18, 2022
202
what you did was an act of compassion.
people that never haven been suicidal will never understand this.
 
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Defatigatis

Defatigatis

And at my funeral, i didn't see you there..
Aug 16, 2022
98
I agree with everyone here, you saved someone from this trash society and planet.
 
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peewee

Specialist
Oct 16, 2025
351
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About two weeks ago a member started a conversation with me after I replied to his post asking for links for a substance. The conversation spanned until Friday night (October 10th) the day the member's package came. The member hasn't been active since they confirmed to me that the substance arrived. With my help this member was able to successfully order and receive the substance and most likely ctb with said substance and a benzo. If this is true then I actually helped someone die. This substance is more potent than fentanyl so no it's not SN. If you were active in the threads for the past month you probably know what the substance I'm talking about is. But I don't know how to feel. The pro life stalkers of this thread probably think I'm a murderer for helping someone ctb but I feel like I helped someone escape this prison planet and his problems he had. RIP to CM (member's username initials) if you successfully ctb.
an you pm the substance ?
 

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