Venting I may have to ctb sooner or later

[Kimlett]

My new year resolution is to finally lose weight and move closer to my dream body. I struggle with binge eating, I've been binge free for a week and I'm starting to feel very anxious. I also want to leave my souless office job which I hate, go back to my parents' and study to be a dietitian.

My hope is that I won't hate my job as a dietitian and that I'll be able to help people. But if it's just as bad as an office job, I may ctb. I don't see any more paths. I'm tired. I need this to work. I won't be able to study anything else, this is my last chance.

If I can't build a life that is better than being dead, I will make plans carefully to ctb succesfully and making it as easy as possible for my family. I know it would ruin their life, but really, I don't see any more options, life is so stupid and painful.

 

[melonpan]

Good luck, I believe in you.
I also struggle with binge eating, it's really dehumanizing how the episodes can be and how humiliating it is to open up to others about it. That is exactly why we need more people like you, who have properly experienced it and can work as a dietician. I hope you can find a future and if not, I hope you can find peace somewhere else.

 

[Kimlett]

Good luck, I believe in you.
I also struggle with binge eating, it's really dehumanizing how the episodes can be and how humiliating it is to open up to others about it. That is exactly why we need more people like you, who have properly experienced it and can work as a dietician. I hope you can find a future and if not, I hope you can find peace somewhere else.

Thank you so much, it means a lot