I managed to survive 2022

[ThatStateOfMind]

I suppose I made it through 2022. I don't know whether to feel elated or saddened, honestly. On one hand I'm still here which feels both good and bad, and on the other hand, I'm not gone, which, again, feels both good and bad. I'm at such a conflict with myself because I'm still here. I'm about to go into my first year without my ex-girlfriend around, she left me mid-December. I celebrated last New Years with her, and it just feels odd to do it alone this year. I'm sitting in my room, alone, with nobody to love or laugh with, or anything like that. Last year, I interacted with her whole family, we played Cards Against Humanity, and kissed as the ball dropped. It feels like ages ago even though it was only a year. Anyway, I suppose I should stop ranting, I mainly just needed to get that off my chest. I have no clue what the future holds for me, and hopefully I'll still be around next New Years, in a better situation.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

It can take time to heal at least somewhat from the loss of a relationship. You're still in the direct aftermath. Hope things turn around for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be hard to deal with what you go through, I believe that it's simply the harsh reality of this existence where anything that is seen as being positive is just something to lose and inevitably cause more suffering to be experienced. Existing certainly can be so painful and disappointing but anyway best of luck.

 

[theboy]

me 2

 

[Hurt]

Me too. I can't believe I am still alive. And another year ahead.. another torture.

 

[Winterreise]

Political attacks, isolation, long nights and loss of friends.

 

[Reallysad]

It's shit