highjumping
Outcast
- May 30, 2023
- 93
I really wanted to try and get better but I feel like giving up.
The person I talked to for some time isn't responding anymore, I'm no longer of need.
There is nobody left to care at this point, it's getting bad again and my brain is clouded, I just feel like giving in, into the thoughts that haunt me all night, telling me I'm not good enough, the world is going to shit anyways, I'm just looking for sleep after years of insomnia. I'm getting sick of people telling me suicide isn't a solution and then just leaving me to rot. Then give me a better one if you think suicide isn't a solution. I'm too tired to be mad, I dragged myself out of bed just to write this on my pc because my thoughts are so overwhelming I can't deal with them alone anymore. At least people here listen to me i guess, not like I have anyone else left at this point.
I feel stupid for writing this and thinking anyone would care about my stupid issues, I'm no more than another sick person in a dying world.
I'm wasting my time alone in my room but I have nobody who would spend time with me, I feel like falling into a hole of self pity, I disgust myself.
Staying clean is harder every day, I hope people suffer greatly once I'm gone soon.
The person I talked to for some time isn't responding anymore, I'm no longer of need.
There is nobody left to care at this point, it's getting bad again and my brain is clouded, I just feel like giving in, into the thoughts that haunt me all night, telling me I'm not good enough, the world is going to shit anyways, I'm just looking for sleep after years of insomnia. I'm getting sick of people telling me suicide isn't a solution and then just leaving me to rot. Then give me a better one if you think suicide isn't a solution. I'm too tired to be mad, I dragged myself out of bed just to write this on my pc because my thoughts are so overwhelming I can't deal with them alone anymore. At least people here listen to me i guess, not like I have anyone else left at this point.
I feel stupid for writing this and thinking anyone would care about my stupid issues, I'm no more than another sick person in a dying world.
I'm wasting my time alone in my room but I have nobody who would spend time with me, I feel like falling into a hole of self pity, I disgust myself.
Staying clean is harder every day, I hope people suffer greatly once I'm gone soon.