w4itingforthesun
always sorry
- Mar 20, 2026
- 6
i hate myself. so much. i lost the one person i was happy and excited to talk to every single day and i am completely the one at fault. i've wanted to end my life for a while now but this has really made me certain. i am so alone now. i loved him. he got tired of me and left me. and now he's never coming back. i don't feel like living like this any longer. i'll be researching on this site for a while and hopefully will figure out a way i can successfully end it. i can only imagine how much peace it'll bring me. i don't have access to much of anything, and i don't know how to get SN and there's not much use in asking. anyways, the one person i had there for me every day has had enough of me. and im paying the price now. i hope to be free soon. i signed up for classes next month but i dont want to do that anymore. i dont want to do anything anymore. i really really loved him. we weren't even dating. silly isn't it? but he said he loved me and said he wanted me, but i messed up and ruined it. i do not deserve to live anymore and neither do i even want to. idk im just rambling but i just want to be happy and this is truly the only way. i really really hope i can find a way and im afraid of it being painful but at the same time im more afraid of being alive for any longer. if anyone is reading this still thank you lol, and if you want to try and help me find a method i would appreciate it
