Help i lost all my capacity to hang myself and i idk if go with partial or full hangin

[letmeseethedeath]

hi y'all
i want to thank all SS members for making me feel like i'm in a family for all these years
i'm suffering a lot and i know my existence is awful and meaningless
i tried so hard these years, i tried to recover, i've been on antidepressants but at the end i lost everything and i lost the girl i still love and i tried to move on but i'm really stuck
i lost all the info here to how hang properly because i don't want to fail
i read that there are some tests i should do like the pressure test etc, can someone explain how? i have a belt to hang and a scarf, it would be too suspicious if i go to a store to buy a rope
thank you all in advance

 

[Aphid]

I'm proud of you for holding on for so long. Despite everything I know that this is a really hard step, please be kind on yourself as you go through this. Make sure whatever you're using squeezed tightly enough around the base of your neck to make you begin to feel feint or begin to make all sound fade out. Tie a slip knot or if you're using a belt make sure it's secure, it's never too late to turn around. Don't forget that. There's no shame in backing down, or staying just a few extra days. Going to the psych ward, or getting more extreme medical intervention and treatment is always available, even if it's fundamentally useless, it's a good idea at least to keep yourself safe for a couple of days. If you survive your attempt if you choose to, please talk to a medical professional or someone who can assist with making sure you're okay.

 

[Pulse9477]

There is some decent information in the Suicide Resource Compilation, though I have seen some more "comprehensive" resources from a user named Evelyn, who is now banned, found here.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I'm proud of you for holding on for so long. Despite everything I know that this is a really hard step, please be kind on yourself as you go through this. Make sure whatever you're using squeezed tightly enough around the base of your neck to make you begin to feel feint or begin to make all sound fade out. Tie a slip knot or if you're using a belt make sure it's secure, it's never too late to turn around. Don't forget that. There's no shame in backing down, or staying just a few extra days. Going to the psych ward, or getting more extreme medical intervention and treatment is always available, even if it's fundamentally useless, it's a good idea at least to keep yourself safe for a couple of days. If you survive your attempt if you choose to, please talk to a medical professional or someone who can assist with making sure you're okay.

thank you so much for your kind words. i already tried everything to recover, even treatment but i always end up with the same results
i made peace with all these emotions and paths
can i ask you if tightly enough around the base of my neck, you mean under the jawline?

There is some decent information in the Suicide Resource Compilation, though I have seen some more "comprehensive" resources from a user named Evelyn, who is now banned, found here.

thank you so much all this is gonna save me for real

 

[Aphid]

thank you so much for your kind words. i already tried everything to recover, even treatment but i always end up with the same results
i made peace with all these emotions and paths
can i ask you if tightly enough around the base of my neck, you mean under the jawline?

thank you so much all this is gonna save me for real

Instead of right under the jawline, do it where your neck meets your shoulder line. It's way less painful that way from
My experience and you pass out extremely quickly

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Instead of right under the jawline, do it where your neck meets your shoulder line. It's way less painful that way from
My experience and you pass out extremely quickly

do you mean in the middle of the neck? also if i try with a belt where should i put the belt, stuck in the door of my bedroom? unfortunately i can't do full hanging because i live in apartment

 

[Aphid]

Not the middle of the neck like, right at the bottom where your neck connects to your body dear, also yes in the door works, I've done it before, just make sure it has capacity to hold it.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Not the middle of the neck like, right at the bottom where your neck connects to your body dear, also yes in the door works, I've done it before, just make sure it has capacity to hold it.

i checked my door, it looks like the strongest in the house but not so strong
i have a Ck belt a lil bit thick but i hope it'll be smooth for me
i'll try the same i can't live anymore, it's hurting me a lot

 

[Pulse9477]

i checked my door, it looks like the strongest in the house but not so strong
i have a Ck belt a lil bit thick but i hope it'll be smooth for me
i'll try the same i can't live anymore, it's hurting me a lot

I wish you the best and good luck.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

can you recommend me any pressure test etc so i can be sure i'm doing it properly? i don't want to be saved
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I wish you the best and good luck.

thank you