Venting I loathe being alive.

[d3ad]

I hate the fact that I have to show up to school, and just do everything and carry on with life when I am in extremely deep pain. I hate the fact that I have to do chores everyday, and prepare for my future when I feel like complete crap. I hate the fact that I have to take care of myself when I absolutely do not want to be here. I hate the fact that I have to hide who I am and suppress my emotions in order to survive. I hate it here, I hate every moment of being alive. I cannot believe that I was happy a month ago, wtf?? Maybe it was just an illusion.

 

[azo]

I'm sorry. I can relate to finding it hard to put effort into uni when you just want to die. And to having to pretend all the time.

I hope you're able to find that happiness from before, again. And my DMs are open if you ever need to talk.

 

[derpyderpins]

I hate the fact that I have to show up to school, and just do everything and carry on with life when I am in extremely deep pain. I hate the fact that I have to do chores everyday, and prepare for my future when I feel like complete crap. I hate the fact that I have to take care of myself when I absolutely do not want to be here. I hate the fact that I have to hide who I am and suppress my emotions in order to survive. I hate it here, I hate every moment of being alive. I cannot believe that I was happy a month ago, wtf?? Maybe it was just an illusion.

One of the hardest things is that there's no break. We don't allow each other a break. It all keeps piling up more and more. Something knocks you off your feet? You have to get back up while doing all the other shit you were already doing.

I feel you. I'm fucking tired.

 

[d3ad]

I'm sorry. I can relate to finding it hard to put effort into uni when you just want to die. And to having to pretend all the time.

I hope you're able to find that happiness from before, again. And my DMs are open if you ever need to talk.

Thank you so much for saying this. It means a lot to me.

One of the hardest things is that there's no break. We don't allow each other a break. It all keeps piling up more and more. Something knocks you off your feet? You have to get back up while doing all the other shit you were already doing.

I feel you. I'm fucking tired.

It really sucks. I hate it here. I'm sorry that you feel that way too.