I literally want a hitman

[downndone2]

This sounds so stupid but I quite literally want to hire a hit man to take care of me. I'm tired of living but the thought of ending it on my own is scary. The minute I think about doing it I also think about failure and SI.

I wish there was a way to fix all my stuff but there isn't! I made terrible choices, gambled away a perfect life, ruined everything. I just hate who I have become and feel terrible about about the people I've affected. My life is so fucked, I can't exist like this...

i really just wish i could find someone to take care of me right now. The anxiety over everything is just overwhelming


If you could hire a hit man would you?

 

[azalea087]

If you could hire a hit man would you?

definitely it would be so much nicer without the SI and other feelings leading up to doing it.

This sounds so stupid but I quite literally want to hire a hit man to take care of me.

dont worry its not stupid ive fantasized about it too (to be honest it would be great if they were cheap and easy to find yknow)

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

yes i live in a corrupt country where its easy to find a hitman for around $350. No questions asked . I considered it but lucky enough im on the path towards getting SN.

 

[downndone2]

I didntbwant to use sn but idk.

 

[stoopid]

You have no choice but going to Mexico or somewhere for that, I could tell you where to ask there but it's not guaranteed, but atleast it's no undercover cop there.

 

[nance]

I have also thought about finding a Hitman and even made posts on reddit, some people responded in PM but none from my country. My SI kicks in like crazy even tho i am so miserable , if someone could kill me with less pain it would be great

 

[BBBB]

Yup, have had the same thoughts many times.

 

[downndone2]

Yup, have had the same thoughts many times.



don't understand why everything has to be so hard. I have a gun but the thought of shooting myself is quite overwhelming. Not enough meds to OD. Etc etc etc.

 

[Octavia]

Sometimes I wish that I could request an assassination upon myself, so that the few people who do care about me would be less affected. But I live in Canada, so even if I was able to find a murder professional, they would likely be out of a student who is on her own's budget. Living in a developed country can be both a blessing and a curse. Mostly a blessing, but occasionally I wish that I could be in a place where human life is less valued.

 

[koko]

I think about this all the time ams wish I had a way.

 

[death song]

Have thought about this method a lot also. It is just way complicated in all phases of the plan.

 

[downndone2]

Maybe I'll piss the wrong person off and they'll just put a bullet in my brain. But still want to find a hitman to make sure it actually happens. .

 

[RUPA]

most probably, they will get the money and nothing happens or even worse, I could be subject to a victim of crimes

 

[Emptied_soul]

I've been thinking about this for a while, one of my biggest fears of CBT is messing up or my survival instinct kicking in and preventing me from actually doing it, so having someone else to actually kill me would be so much better.

 

[downndone2]

I've been thinking about this for a while, one of my biggest fears of CBT is messing up or my survival instinct kicking in and preventing me from actually doing it, so having someone else to actually kill me would be so much better.

Yep, I worry about both. But to wake up in hospital with gunshot wound to head, face a mess, paralyzed, alive, maybe blind, unable to eat, etc... doesn't sound good

 

[Lost21]

I would hire a hitman because this would eliminate my problem of SI

 

[lonelyguy]

I've thought about this often, I wish I knew some shady people in canada

 

[qwerty1969]

Only costs $1000 in the Philippines

End a miserable marriage? Hire a hit man? — Ana P. Santos

(UPDATED) Some people would hire someone to kill to get out of a bad marriage

www.anapsantos.com

 

[qwerty1969]

 

[a-friend]

Oh I absolutely would. You wouldn't even know what hit you! Just imagine: you're going on with your day, maybe you're happy (because, for me, I'd like to do something I enjoy before I CBT), then WHAM! Lights out.

 

[thevaccumguy]

I mean, hiring the hitman is probably the easy part. It's just that as it'll be a homicide case, you're leaving a hell of a mess behind for your family and friends to get tangled in. Depending on your circumstances , that may not be a problem though ( much like my own) . Also depending on where you live, getting the potential service may be a hassle , especially if you're not well connected with the local gangs and mafia. I'll leave the dark web hiring options out as those are- 1) unreliable 2) costs way too much

 

[another horizon]

it would be quicker than acquiring SN for sure.

 

[Caoine01]

I think we all know the scene from the movie sin city (2005) with the red dress.

I envy the girl every time I see the film.