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FoolClimax

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Jun 26, 2026
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Why don't people just take benzos to turnoff their SI. When I used to take benzos for incredible mental suffering I was going through it completely killed my SI. I could literally jump off a bridge or kill someone if I was tasked to do it. Clonazepam and Alprazolam is great. Benzos literally saved my life when I couldn't leave but also couldn't bear to live on.
 
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logen9inefingers

logen9inefingers

body found floating by the docks
Jan 13, 2025
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I want to have it but it's difficult to get benzos here. :(
 
cantthinkofusername

cantthinkofusername

wannabe girl
Feb 25, 2024
196
Why don't people just take benzos to turnoff their SI. When I used to take benzos for incredible mental suffering I was going through it completely killed my SI. I could literally jump off a bridge or kill someone if I was tasked to do it. Clonazepam and Alprazolam is great. Benzos literally saved my life when I couldn't leave but also couldn't bear to live on.
because they're like incredibly addictive and if i got on them id never be able to get off them
 
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MatiSendiri

The world is still unfair to me
Jun 8, 2025
249
Why don't people just take benzos to turnoff their SI. When I used to take benzos for incredible mental suffering I was going through it completely killed my SI. I could literally jump off a bridge or kill someone if I was tasked to do it. Clonazepam and Alprazolam is great. Benzos literally saved my life when I couldn't leave but also couldn't bear to live on.
I think it's literally in the every CTB protocol I know mate. The most famous ones is oxazepam in PPEH SN protocol.
 
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Aug 21, 2026
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Why don't people just take benzos to turnoff their SI. When I used to take benzos for incredible mental suffering I was going through it completely killed my SI. I could literally jump off a bridge or kill someone if I was tasked to do it. Clonazepam and Alprazolam is great. Benzos literally saved my life when I couldn't leave but also couldn't bear to live on.
I love benzos they are amazing. As my CTB date approaches I've found myself doing a lot of benzos. I feel like it's the 24th of august today but its not. I look at messages from just days ago and I remember it as being just last night or even earlier today

It's alleviating a lot of stress and anxiety I have knowing how soon I'll be gone and not having any worries while I'm waiting. I quit my job a few months ago to give myself time to get everything in order and trying to make good memories with loved ones.

Every time I look at the clock it feels like its been minutes but its been hours. They feel like little pills that skip time and let you feel nothing while it's happening. They've allowed my final week or so to be much more bearable as I wait for my sn to arrive

I am grateful there is such an easily attainable substance that makes you feel completely numb and allows you to go through something as drastic as ending your own life.
 
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