I lurked for quite a while before joining & I know a lot of your stories. I see your triggers, your pains, your confusions, & frustrations... who's like the mother(s) in threads, who always gives sound opinions, who gives love, who always jumps in with logic/speaks their minds when things get derailed. I have so much respect for so many of you. & To be honest, many of you inspire me.
Today is the perfect day for a bus ride, as I hoped it would be. I will be boarding later this evening & will check in. I am not going to reveal my method due to internet privacy reasons, but I can assure you that SI is going to be a bitch. The difference between my attempts in the past & now is that I know that I have to keep reminding myself of why I am CTB all throughout.
I completed what I believe is what I was meant to do in this life & now I just suffer. My decision is sound. It's time for me to lie down.
I found this video last night (I love AW) & I hope it gives you the comfort like it has me, no matter where we end up after our bodies are no longer... we are all the universe: everything.
You're It- Alan Watts
Endless love, beautiful community. Your contribution & vulnerability is healing in many ways for many others.
