Venting I just wasted my time.

[Corovaner]

10 months ago I decided to try to fix my life, make it like 13 years ago. And attempt failed, like all other in my life. I worked hard on my job, and it leds me to nothing. I quit it, mostly bacause I found out that my colleagues abusing their children. Scums. And salary was not enough. I cannot get my own home, cannot get over my poverty, cannot fix my health. Si and hope are bitches. Toxic positivity is a bullshit. I just wasted my time to return to the start point. I regret that I didn't kill myself last year.

 

[larplarpsahur]

I'm sorry to hear you went thru all of that, but you tried to make a difference and I think that's the important thing you've accomplished

 

[Corovaner]

Thank you for kind words, but my attempt to fix my life was miserable. I've accomplished almost nothing.
And I don't know what to do next. The most logical step is suicide, because there is no future for me, but what if I survive sn? And SI is a tough son of a bitch.

 

[Corovaner]

Perhaps someone else tried to fix their life?

 

[auti]

I spent like a year trying to fix my life recently. Went through a lot of treatment, hospitalizations, and meds. For a while I had hope it really could improve but of course it all came crashing down again. I'm probably in a worse state now than I was before I tried to get better minus the psychosis. Yeah it was a big waste of time and energy but I keep going back to it I really want to get better I just don't know how so I feel you.

 

[Corovaner]

I spent like a year trying to fix my life recently. Went through a lot of treatment, hospitalizations, and meds. For a while I had hope it really could improve but of course it all came crashing down again. I'm probably in a worse state now than I was before I tried to get better minus the psychosis. Yeah it was a big waste of time and energy but I keep going back to it I really want to get better I just don't know how so I feel you.

Did you try to get job?

 

[Penelope12]

I understand you. I would like my Life to be the way It was 15 Years ago, but that's impossible And everyone Tells me to be positive, they Just don't realize.

 

[Corovaner]

I understand you. I would like my Life to be the way It was 15 Years ago, but that's impossible And everyone Tells me to be positive, they Just don't realize.

Why do you to kill yourself?

 

[Penelope12]

Perché vuoi suicidarti?

I miss my ex and I can't find a decent job

 

[auti]

Initially yes. I went through I think 3 jobs in this time period. Ended up having to quit all of them because of how messed up I was. Now I have a different job and it's looking like I'll have to quit that too. Mostly I have a hard time with working because of lack of motivation, too many hospitalizations, and not getting along with coworkers I'm prone to getting "adult bullied".

Did you try to get job?