I just need to tell this to someone

[NeverEndingPain]

I have no one to talk to and just need to get this out. I sleep with my rope and hold it like it's a stuffed animal for comfort. I will also hang it around my neck and just sit there wearing it.
I live alone so no one sees this.
Has anyone done things like this? I feel weird

 

[Cathy Ames]

I'm not sure, but I think there is (or was) at least one person here who slept with their SN.

 

[leeloosnow]

lol ya i sleep w my sn. like, it's wrapped up and behind the bed sorta but i can reach over and touch that storage, feels safe. have in the past done similar things w/rope as you mention, with various lvls of intention. i ordered twice, so sometimes i take my friends out and one jar for each hand and dance around n make shakey shakey songs.

 

[Life_and_Death]

ive had my rope around my neck a few times

 

[Un-]

I read that someone sleeps with their shotgun. If I had my SN, I'd do the same.

 

[makethepainstop]

I have no one to talk to and just need to get this out. I sleep with my rope and hold it like it's a stuffed animal for comfort. I will also hang it around my neck and just sit there wearing it.
I live alone so no one sees this.
Has anyone done things like this? I feel weird

Ok, you told us yours and now I shall tell you all mine. When I got my SN I was positively cackling with glee and rubbing my hands. I keep that lovely container with the powders of liberation where I can look at it and I on occasion pat the container warmly. I have also placed the barrel of a firearm in my mouth once or twice just to see.......So I guess it is a bit natural to be delighted with ones preferred method of departure, after all these tools are what will allow us to end our pain! So, my love for method #1 SN and my love for my backup, #2 method a 45-derringer slug.
Hopefully, others can now feel ok to share their true feelings and thoughts about this.

 

[Regen]

If I feel very painful, sometimes I go to the trains only to look and have the feeling that there is a way out.

And yes, I think it is a little bit weird. But only weird because it is not normal to be suicidal and feel so much pain. You know what I mean? From the View of another suicidal person maybe it is less weird.

 

[NeverEndingPain]

If I feel very painful, sometimes I go to the trains only to look and have the feeling that there is a way out.

And yes, I think it is a little bit weird. But only weird because it is not normal to be suicidal and feel so much pain. You know what I mean? From the View of another suicidal person maybe it is less weird.

I think it's my way to comfort myself and to try to mentally prepare