Venting I just had a dream that made me relapse into suicide idealization

[sulk]

I don't know why my brain would purposely try to fuck me up like this but I just had a dream about someone in my life who I'm obsessed with doing something targeted toward my biggest insecurity and fear and now I'm genuinely losing it I had this dream a day ago now I seriously can't stop thinking about it now as crazy as it sounds I literally want to end it so I dont remember it anymore bc it seems like the only choice!! Why is my brain trying to kill me

 

[BlueberryDeer]

Kinda contradicting since the brain supposedly has to prioritize survival over any death.
Remember that dreams are notl a direct message from our brains. Dreams could be 'feed' with experiences, lectures and knowledge who took the same day or previous ones. So perhaps your brain isn't telling you to do it directly, only resolved to process the gathered info as a dream for not being excessively overwhelmed.