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gamingforever9

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Aug 25, 2026
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Everytime when I am about to ctb I find myself very afraid or procrastinating or just in stupor which ultimately leads to postponing my attempt.

It's so frustrating..

How do I get the courage to do it?
 
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Aug 30, 2026
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Everytime when I am about to ctb I find myself very afraid or procrastinating or just in stupor which ultimately leads to postponing my attempt.

It's so frustrating..

How do I get the courage to do it?
May be dear, a part of you wants you to live. That's why it pulls you back..
You know yourself better so you are the best judge why it wants you to live.. may be to give life another chance, or may be to live for the people who love you or may be something else.
I'm also a ctber , no part of me ever stopped me until now.. Now because my family suddenly loves me, this part of me stops me
 
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