I've had a weirder experience in a way. My Grandma had just died. I was just too late in getting to the hospital. It was the first and only time I saw a corpse. I went in to say goodbye and then, we sat down on a bench outside the hospital. I was looking down and crying and all these ants were scurrying back and forth to their nest. It seemed so weird that something so massive in my life had just happened (my Grandma was effectively my Mum) yet, life for almost everything else was going on as normal.
That's happening now too. Something utterly awful and life changing will be happening to someone while the rest of us butter our toast, totally oblivious.
Thousands will have died globally by the end of the day but billions more just carry on. That seems weirder to me- just that daily grind. Yes, everything is dying but given how other life just takes over, to an extent, it all feels so depressingly insignificant too.
But then, I don't really believe that. I think the way we live our lives impacts those we leave behind. Ok, they'll die too. But still, some people leave a legacy in terms of their achievement. Others just in who they were- they made other people's lives nicer for being here. That has to be better than wreaking havoc while we're here or, leaving alone. Although- I suspect many of us will fall in to that second category. I get the impression a lot of us are very withdrawn here. That's in part to protect people though. I hope they can appreciate that for what it is.
I guess it would be weirder if everything lasted forever. Would we value things the same if they were for all time?
