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apple2myeye!

apple2myeye!

it/its
Jun 3, 2022
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i dont think i look disgusting today any more than i usually do but today ive just ghad this feeling of nauseous disgust at thge world the whole time .. im, not "really" nauseous todayt because i havenbt had stomach problems and i havent thrown up but i still feel like i have both! i slept like shit last night whih probably exacerbated it but either way i fucking hate feeling like this, it really got bad today but i feel at least a little bit of wghat im feeling today every single day i get out of bed, i wish i coukld just not get up and wait for myuseolf to starve but i dont want to hurrt not even a second more
 
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AllFoxedOut

AllFoxedOut

Arcanist
Jun 7, 2023
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I'm sorry for your pain <3 I often feel disgusting in my own body too. it makes me avoid showering and looking in the mirror. I don't think I've looked in the mirror for a week
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Existing here certainly is so torturous, to me it's so dreadful how there's too much suffering in existing, it must be tiring having to suffer like that. But anyway best wishes.
 

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