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SUlClDE

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Jan 29, 2026
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it's scary to think I won't exist after I die, I have been an atheist since birth but I'm now slowly opening up to the idea of an afterlife.

But I guess we will die someday anyway whether if it's suicide or not and I will have to overcome this fear.
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
252
it's scary to think I won't exist after I die, I have been an atheist since birth but I'm now slowly opening up to the idea of an afterlife.

But I guess we will die someday anyway whether if it's suicide or not and I will have to overcome this fear.
why is it scary for you?
do you actually still have attachment to life?

for me i would love that the most.
 
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SUlClDE

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Jan 29, 2026
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why is it scary for you?
do you actually still have attachment to life?

for me i

why is it scary for you?
do you actually still have attachment to life?

for me i would love that the most.
There's some things in life that I enjoy that I find hard to give up and I guess it's just an instinct to stay alive.

I already don't enjoy living and I for sure know my life will get a lot worse in a few years so suicide seems logical
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
252
I for sure know my life will get a lot worse in a few years so suicide seems logical
brother or sister or anything,
how old are you even?

then prepare for it but just dont do it. FUCK im jealous on you.
why? because you can still enjoy things.

you can always do it latter. why bother about it now?
 
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SUlClDE

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Jan 29, 2026
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brother or sister or anything,
how old are you even?

then prepare for it but just dont do it. FUCK im jealous on you.
why? because you can still enjoy things.

you can always do it latter. why bother about it now?
Im from a former Soviet nation, conscription is still a thing here, I'm finishing school in a few years. I have the lowest grades in my class and I'm sure I won't make it into university and the army will take me, my parents have left me at a young age and I live with my other family members, they have high expectations of me and will kill me if they found out how I have been doing
 
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mjolnir

The One Who Falls From the Sky
Nov 15, 2025
172
If you're thinking about this out of fear, perhaps it's worth looking at the fear itself first, before deciding what to believe.
If there is something after death, it's not fear that will make it real. And, if there isn't, believing won't change that fact.
I don't think we need to invent an 'after' for the present to have value. Perhaps it's precisely the fact that it ends that makes this important.
If you want to believe, that's fine—but try to see if it comes from conviction or just fear. Because those are very different things.
 
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noah12

Frozen
Apr 10, 2026
21
I know what you mean. I'm afraid that everything I love will disappear forever, but at the same time it feels good to think that after this there's nothing more. I won't cry, I won't feel pain, and all those things that I hate will disappear with me. The fear will vanish forever.
 
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welcome

welcome

Member
Apr 4, 2026
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why is it scary for you?
do you actually still have attachment to life?

for me i would love that the most.
How does it not feel scary? It means that there is no real meaning to life. Your existence wasn't for any reason, and you will never be able to control that. You'll be left paralyzed forever in nothing. It isn't some cute movie with end credits which has some narrator talking about something that sounds vaguely philosophical at the end of it to make people feel good and whatnot. It means that nothing matters and you're only told that it matters so that you can keep being a slave for the rich, hedonistic assholes who exploit the world so they can fulfill their pleasures while they still can. It means that there is no justice for the people who hurt, rape, torture, slaughter and oppress other people with impunity in this world, as they continue to live and die a more peaceful life than you will ever have. That doesn't scare you?
 
nitritegirl

nitritegirl

anguish.
Jun 26, 2025
76
i only want to die because of the way i was born, so if there was an afterlife where i was born the way i needed to be i would very dearly accept that. i don't think there is though, but it doesn't matter for me, i just need to die.
 

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