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iamjustapebble

iamjustapebble

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Sep 20, 2025
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I got a really good moment to kill myself. I'll be home alone for a while. They won't find out I killed myself for several hours if not days. Lord, I hope I do it and I don't chicken out. Or worse, alert my friends or therapist. I'll have to find the perfect time so that my cat won't have to suffer without food too much.
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Hold hands, die together? Neverland.. ๐Ÿ’œ
Jul 19, 2026
325
What is your method if I can ask? I'm sorry if it's rude or callous
 
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iamjustapebble

i hope you'll miss me
Sep 20, 2025
93
What is your method if I can ask? I'm sorry if it's rude or callous
It's not, don't worry. I'm using a 12mm polypropylene rope with which I'll hang myself on my door, so full suspension hanging. At the end of the rope, on the side that I'll be hanging, I'll tie a dumbell.
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Hold hands, die together? Neverland.. ๐Ÿ’œ
Jul 19, 2026
325
It's not, don't worry. I'm using a 12mm polypropylene rope with which I'll hang myself on my door, so full suspension hanging. At the end of the rope, on the side that I'll be hanging, I'll tie a dumbell.
Ohh I see, that's very reliable, I hope you'll find peace ๐Ÿ’œ I also wished to go by hanging but it seems the world is forcing me to take SN instead
You seem like a lovely person from uur posts, we never spoke, but I'll miss and keep uu in mind ๐Ÿ’œ
 
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iamjustapebble

i hope you'll miss me
Sep 20, 2025
93
Ohh I see, that's very reliable, I hope you'll find peace ๐Ÿ’œ I also wished to go by hanging but it seems the world is forcing me to take SN instead
You seem like a lovely person from uur posts, we never spoke, but I'll miss and keep uu in mind ๐Ÿ’œ
I thought about SN, but I don't know where to get anti-emetics, and I don't want to dabble in illegal purchases, sounds scary.
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Hold hands, die together? Neverland.. ๐Ÿ’œ
Jul 19, 2026
325
I thought about SN, but I don't know where to get anti-emetics, and I don't want to dabble in illegal purchases, sounds scary.
If I did it I'd have to do it without anti emetics sadly, I tried to cancel the order a thousand times and it never went through haha
 
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fluorescentpearl

Hold hands, die together? Neverland.. ๐Ÿ’œ
Jul 19, 2026
325
Those are pretty hard to get, I believe. Is SN legal in your country? (it is in mine)
In mine I don't know haha, I tried looking it up but didn't get concrete answers, but it seems in all of the eu it's regulated!
Also for your cat, I would recommend not letting the cat in the room where it happens if uu decide to go through with it, it's possible the cat might like, try to eat you I heard ',:/

No clue if it's true or not.. But still!
 
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iamjustapebble

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In mine I don't know haha, I tried looking it up but didn't get concrete answers, but it seems in all of the eu it's regulated!
Also for your cat, I would recommend not letting the cat in the room where it happens if uu decide to go through with it, it's possible the cat might like, try to eat you I heard ',:/

No clue if it's true or not.. But still!
In my country (european union and central europe), it's actually suprisingly easy to get. it's 5EUR/1kg which is pretty cheap. I looked at the reviews for one of the listings and one of them said something along the lines of "Finally something that works effectively and humanely." which is interesting.
I don't mind my cat eating me, if I'm dead that's what he wants.
 
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Hold hands, die together? Neverland.. ๐Ÿ’œ
Jul 19, 2026
325
In my country (european union and central europe), it's actually suprisingly easy to get. it's 5EUR/1kg which is pretty cheap. I looked at the reviews for one of the listings and one of them said something along the lines of "Finally something that works effectively and humanely." which is interesting.
I don't mind my cat eating me, if I'm dead that's what he wants.
That is so surprising! I had to spend sixty euros for one hundred grams ๐Ÿ˜ญ I feel scammed so bad now
Generally though I also think the cat could develop an anxiety disorder if left alone with you after it, so I would still try to find a way for the cat to not enter the space where you'll be ๐Ÿ’œ I hope that makes sense
 
iamjustapebble

iamjustapebble

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Sep 20, 2025
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That is so surprising! I had to spend sixty euros for one hundred grams ๐Ÿ˜ญ I feel scammed so bad now
I'm so sorry!!! It would probably be harder to ship to whereever you live if it's regulated in your country, though. So maybe it actually wasn't a scam.
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Hold hands, die together? Neverland.. ๐Ÿ’œ
Jul 19, 2026
325
I'm so sorry!!! It would probably be harder to ship to whereever you live if it's regulated in your country, though. So maybe it actually wasn't a scam.
Can I ask what country it is? I'm so curious now, I'm from Estonia in North eu!

And yeah it likely isn't a scam, or at least the price isn't, the website was horribly scammy though, insane customer service, the caller just said "I donw't ant to talk so please leave a message" ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ insane
 
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iamjustapebble

i hope you'll miss me
Sep 20, 2025
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Can I ask what country it is? I'm so curious now, I'm from Estonia in North eu!

And yeah it likely isn't a scam, or at least the price isn't, the website was horribly scammy though, insane customer service, the caller just said "I donw't ant to talk so please leave a message" ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ insane
I live in a slavic country in central europe, so definitely more conservative and people definitely care less about mental health.
I don't have any experience with illegal websites even the proffessional looking ones scare me so much, I can't even imagine trying to buy anything or call them, I think I'd panic and just throw my phone out of my window lol
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Hold hands, die together? Neverland.. ๐Ÿ’œ
Jul 19, 2026
325
I definitely get you, I went insane trying to cancel the order as I got worried it would get me in trouble and hanging sounds so much nicer
 
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hdead

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Jun 2, 2026
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Those are pretty hard to get, I believe. Is SN legal in your country? (it is in mine)
I got them so easy off DH. The process of setting up BTC, XMR and PGP are kinda iffy but there is a good guide here. Once you get the hang of if it's just online shopping.

I've been able to get so far;
Oxy (20, 40 & 80)
Hydro
Morphine
Lorazepam
Temazepam
Alprazolam
Midazolam
Oxazepam
Metoclo
Carisprodol
Propanolol

It call came within 3 weeks. Best part it's all legit
 
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