Venting I have two upcoming chances and I might take them

[GUZMA]

I'm going to have a chance to end it in a few days and another in a week and a bit, the excitement is absolutely there but I'm also so scared of failing

People are starting to hate me, it really did work when I tried to push them away, maybe a bit too much, I don't have a support system anymore I just keep digging my grave more each day

But yeah not much I can do right now, as much as people advise against it I would love to try eye drops again, I got so close to dying last time I just pussied out when forced to vomit

Could also try do a partial hanging but I never have any luck.. I'm not sure if sn is for me but I might try order some, I'm tired atp and am willing to do anything to end it

This is really just me, treating this site like an echo chamber again but oh well.

 

[darksouls]

good luck
hope everything goes well for you
and you find the relief you search for

 

[NR2BA]

Eye drops? Sorry I'm not following, pls explain

 

[alwaysalone]

Eye drops? Sorry I'm not following, pls explain

The active ingredient in some eyedrops is lethal.

 

[NR2BA]

The active ingredient in some eyedrops is lethal.

Ah did not know that thanks

 

[alwaysalone]

Ah did not know that thanks

Np it's kinda sketchy though. Lots of questions about exactly how much you need which ones etc... I've seen true crime shows where people have murdered people with eye drops though so I know it can work.