I have tried so hard to put the past behind me and I am done fighting.

[FireFox]

I have tried so hard to put the past behind me and i am done fighting. Just rescently seeing women I grew up getting married or having serious relationships it's an awful reminder of how I was always rejected and ignored girl now woman while everyone else got into a relationship. These women attend the local church I attend. These women as a children we made together our first holy communion, confirmation and went to the same local Catholic school. Their lives are amazing having careers, travelling and just doing cool stuff since leaving school. These women live in my neighbourhood. The neighbourhood area I live in is a subhurb.

Everyone I grew up is doing better than me and i am the biggest failure at 25 years old.

When I was university I got involved in my students union and was made societies chair which was responsible for improving the university student societies. At university I worked so hard to be a really good law student who got good grades and I was so passionate about the law subjects I studied. I ended up having a massive reputation for being a passionate debater in class which was wonderful. I always made the effort make friends and socialise but still I experienced male rejection and always being overlooked. When I was at work I managed to build good relations with my work colleagues who ended up missing me when my job ended.

People judge those who are in deep depression but nobody ever sees the person's determination to create a better future of themselves. I am so f*cking tired of fighting and nothing ever working out. I fought so hard to create a better life for myself and I am done. CTB at 30 because I do not want to see another decade anymore.

 

[freevoid]

I have tried so hard to put the past behind me and i am done fighting. Just rescently seeing women I grew up getting married or having serious relationships it's an awful reminder of how I was always rejected and ignored girl now woman while everyone else got into a relationship. These women attend the local church I attend. These women as a children we made together our first holy communion, confirmation and went to the same local Catholic school. Their lives are amazing having careers, travelling and just doing cool stuff since leaving school. These women live in my neighbourhood. The neighbourhood area I live in is a subhurb.

Everyone I grew up is doing better than me and i am the biggest failure at 25 years old.

When I was university I got involved in my students union and was made societies chair which was responsible for improving the university student societies. At university I worked so hard to be a really good law student who got good grades and I was so passionate about the law subjects I studied. I ended up having a massive reputation for being a passionate debater in class which was wonderful. I always made the effort make friends and socialise but still I experienced male rejection and always being overlooked. When I was at work I managed to build good relations with my work colleagues who ended up missing me when my job ended.

People judge those who are in deep depression but nobody ever sees the person's determination to create a better future of themselves. I am so f*cking tired of fighting and nothing ever working out. I fought so hard to create a better life for myself and I am done. CTB at 30 because I do not want to see another decade anymore.

I'm so sorry. Rejection is a bitch and you seem like such a bright passionate person. I sincerely hope it turns around. Loneliness sucks, I feel you there.

Obvious question but is online dating an option? Totally cool if its not your thing

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry. I can hear all the effort you put in to trying to make things work out. I know what you mean- it just all feels an uphill battle doesn't it? A constant slog just to get by. I totally understand why you're just sick and tired of it all- I feel the same.

I'm in a similar position to you. No partner. Never even had a relationship. I'm older than you- 42. Most of my friends now have husbands and children. Honestly, I did feel as you do at one point. I very much wanted to meet someone and share my life with them. I'm pretty messed up though- I think all my ridiculously obsessive crushes were limerance. I have gotten to the stage where I don't long for that so much now. I kind of know I'm probably better off alone.

It's so sad because you sound like such a caring, compassionate person. It feels like there must be so many lonely people out there who would be happier in a relationship. It's just such a shame we can't bring everyone together.

I simply don't believe all men would reject you. They can't all be that shallow! It's just so sad you've had so many bad experiences in the past. It's bound to have shattered your confidence and I do feel sure that relationships- like anything else in this tedious world are often actively sought out. I've known friends who have/are actively seeking partners and the emotional rollercoaster just seems too much for me.

I'm sorry you are feeling so low. I really wish I knew what to say to help.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life is just too unfair and people can be very disappointing after all. It sounds like you have been through a lot and I understand why you would feel so tired, I also find it awful the thought of being trapped in this life for another decade. I wish you the best.

 

[Phill]

I feel you. I'm 32 and I've been rejected by every girl I've ever liked. I feel discouraged about having a relationship, especially having to deal with social anxiety, depression, OCD and all that crap.

It's such a shame to read what you wrote. You seem to be a very passionate person and I'm feel very sorry for you.

People judge those who are in deep depression but nobody ever sees the person's determination to create a better future of themselves.

Here you bring something very real. People don't know how much we fight to get better, how much we try to have a good life... We just can't do it, and it's not because we're lazy the way they think. That sucks.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

We are better off alone unfortunately. I once again gave an opportunity to happiness and I got dumped at the street. I really cannot trust anyone anymore. I can't.

 

[Final-push123]

I have tried so hard to put the past behind me and i am done fighting. Just rescently seeing women I grew up getting married or having serious relationships it's an awful reminder of how I was always rejected and ignored girl now woman while everyone else got into a relationship. These women attend the local church I attend. These women as a children we made together our first holy communion, confirmation and went to the same local Catholic school. Their lives are amazing having careers, travelling and just doing cool stuff since leaving school. These women live in my neighbourhood. The neighbourhood area I live in is a subhurb.

Everyone I grew up is doing better than me and i am the biggest failure at 25 years old.

When I was university I got involved in my students union and was made societies chair which was responsible for improving the university student societies. At university I worked so hard to be a really good law student who got good grades and I was so passionate about the law subjects I studied. I ended up having a massive reputation for being a passionate debater in class which was wonderful. I always made the effort make friends and socialise but still I experienced male rejection and always being overlooked. When I was at work I managed to build good relations with my work colleagues who ended up missing me when my job ended.

People judge those who are in deep depression but nobody ever sees the person's determination to create a better future of themselves. I am so f*cking tired of fighting and nothing ever working out. I fought so hard to create a better life for myself and I am done. CTB at 30 because I do not want to see another decade anymore.

Hmmm would you say it more the male rejection that causing you pain or feeling like you are not at the level you think you should be?