I have to die soon

[cymbaline23]

I can't do this anymore. I don't even feel like talking about it anymore. I just need to die. I'm so scared to die because I don't want to be in pain or be unsuccessful. I'm scared of what's on the other side. But I can't take it anymore. I need a painless method to die. I can't bear to keep living. There's nothing for me here. I hate society and the nature of life. I feel so disconnected from everyone and everything. I'm scared the future. I've wasted my life and I'm running out of time. I can't do the things everyone else does, and even if I could, I don't want to. I don't want to have to watch everyone I love die. All I ever want to do is to talk to my therapist. No matter how hard I try, I never get any better. Nothing makes me feel better. Everything my mom says when she tries to make it better just makes it so much worse. The cycle is endless, and I feel like I'm imprisoned. I can't have friends, I can't be loved, I can't go out in the world on my own. I'm debilitated and broken beyond repair. I need this to end soon. Please help me. I don't know what to do. I'm serious. I genuinely need to die. I need a painless method, but I don't even think that's possible. I wish I could die in my sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to fall asleep permanently, it's all I've personally hoped for but anyway I hope that you find peace from suffering.

 

[granny1!]

I'm 68 and I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of suffering before I die. I, too, wish I could die in my sleep.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I feel the same way. This existence is torture. I want to die so badly but am afraid for all the reasons you mentioned.
I'm so sorry you are suffering too.

 

[boringlife]

I can't do this anymore. I don't even feel like talking about it anymore. I just need to die. I'm so scared to die because I don't want to be in pain or be unsuccessful. I'm scared of what's on the other side. But I can't take it anymore. I need a painless method to die. I can't bear to keep living. There's nothing for me here. I hate society and the nature of life. I feel so disconnected from everyone and everything. I'm scared the future. I've wasted my life and I'm running out of time. I can't do the things everyone else does, and even if I could, I don't want to. I don't want to have to watch everyone I love die. All I ever want to do is to talk to my therapist. No matter how hard I try, I never get any better. Nothing makes me feel better. Everything my mom says when she tries to make it better just makes it so much worse. The cycle is endless, and I feel like I'm imprisoned. I can't have friends, I can't be loved, I can't go out in the world on my own. I'm debilitated and broken beyond repair. I need this to end soon. Please help me. I don't know what to do. I'm serious. I genuinely need to die. I need a painless method, but I don't even think that's possible. I wish I could die in my sleep.

I feel that way too... I wish that for myself as well!