I have nothing left

[StarSlut]

Hey.
I am a new poster here. Found this forum, as i feel like this is the only place where i can find likeminded people who understand me.
Probably will soon CTB, dont know yet, making stuff so it is all arrenged.
About me. Im 27.
I have never met my biological dad, and my mother left me.
My step family also left me and blocked me when i started transistioning.
Yeah im one of those mentally ill jerks.
Been in and out of jobs, been fired at places.
Had to deal with bullying and abuse my whole school and life.
Did a bunch of drugs for a while to cope , but then became clean.
Been working simple jobs my entire life.
Recently got fired from a place.
I try to be there for the couple people i talk online. But i myself cant take this pain anymore. Its been growing years and years, and i get more numb.
Deal with cPTSD from my trauma with life, and time in the military.
Cant get any mental help, due to being easten europoor.
Live in a ghetoo, in a small rental apartment alone.
Everything is fucked.

 

[RadiantNumber]

Hi and welcome!
I hope we could help you find peace You are looking for
Hugs

 

[StarSlut]

I have never had a proper relationship too. Im just like an alone autistic person.
I have tried to be normal, i have tried to work on myself. See psychologists, psychatrists, take meds, call lines. But you know what. None of that thing help. Its all a lie. And society is just about like extracting as much from you as you can. While some rich assholes live well. Here in this shithole country I live. Cant even get like any doctor. Do you have pointers, for any materials on how to CTB?

 

[RadiantNumber]

I have never had a proper relationship too. Im just like an alone autistic person.
I have tried to be normal, i have tried to work on myself. See psychologists, psychatrists, take meds, call lines. But you know what. None of that thing help. Its all a lie. And society is just about like extracting as much from you as you can. While some rich assholes live well. Here in this shithole country I live. Cant even get like any doctor. Do you have pointers, for any materials on how to CTB?

I can reccomend starting here

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Society just sucks, they call us bad people, but it's them sending people to wars :/

 

[Corovaner]

Why did you decide to do transition?

 

[StarSlut]

Why did you decide to do transition?

I just always felt myself more feminine. It was something i was, but had to hide for many years. But yeah also when i started transistioning, i saw how much society rejected me even more and was pushed aside.

 

[darksouls]

welcome to this community,
I am sorry that you have to go through all this,
I hope you can find some peace in this safe space,
anyway,
I like your username