Venting I have no straws left to grasp at..

[Olivie_420]

I know its early, at least for me. Not even noon. But i cant do this anymore. These last week has been hell. Ive done things i regret, i was pressured into taking a psychedelic monday morning that STILL has me in pain and shaky today, the stress of december, walking on eggshells with my boyfriend and having to deal with his fists and hurtful words when i make a mistake.

I dont mean to be like this. I am a horrible friend, a horrible person. I dont bring anything to the table. Im a worthless piece of shit who without my "loving" boyfriend id just have been dead under some bridge sooner. Im honestly thinking about changing the date to my ctb plan from December, to fucking tonight. I cant do this anymore.


Edit: If i do go through with it tonight, i will be posting videos and pictures of what ive been going through, but only because this account will be given to my best friend. I have not told her anything i have posted on here.

 

[inbekween]

I am so sorry you have to go through that. :( Your pain is valid, and if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here (inbekween dc) I'm not gonna discourage you from going forth with your plan but i wish you the best, and peace moving forward if that's the step you wish to take.