Is anyone else in this situation? I am really suffering. My life has been on pause for awhile now. And I don't think time is going to make things better, I have lost literally everything in myself I liked. Everything. I now have zero redeeming qualities. And it's so obvious whenever I interact with anyone.
I lost my conversation. Now the only words that come out of my mouth during conversations is basically yes and no. Where as I used to have a creative energy about me and used to be a really strong talker. Now I can only talk if I'm complaining like now.
I lost my libido completely and I have no drive now what so ever. When I look at the opposite sex I feel nothing. And my penis is numb.
I feel no emotions what so ever. I am completely numb to everything. I feel no pleasure from doing anything
I have literally no interests or hobbies. The only thing I look forward to is sleeping on a night because for a time I don't have to feel anything. I tell a lie, the only thing I am not numb to is pain. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin twenty four seven and it's just misery all day every day. My body feels like my tomb.
My cognitive abilities have gone out the window
I used to be smarter than what I am now. Now my memory is awful and I have a hard time grasping information and learning since nothing sticks ever since I listened to the voices instructing me to spit on myself and basically repulse myself due to being in psychosis at the time. After the spitting it's like my brain went to mush. I know no one will believe me that it's possible to make yourself dumber by spitting on yourself but it literally happened to me.
I used to have autism. According to doctors. Finding it hard to speak to people. But now I can talk or be around anyone without anxiety ever since I changed. I feel absolutely nothing around anyone. No fear no anxiety no nothing. I know this might not sound like a bad thing but it really is because I feel like I have lost my identity.
I often wish I was born in the USA since I could just buy a gun and shoot myself. But I can't. Why did all of this happen to me. I'm not revealing how I got this way because the history is too long and complex but I often wonder if I am destined to suffer this way. And why. I don't feel like I'm learning anything from this state. It's awful
I just feel tormented all the time. It really does feel like hell. Does anyone know of any methods that are easy fast and pain free? I have literally no quality of life. Please, what would you do if you were in my position? I want to live.but I want to die at the same time. Life is so ridiculously hard.
Losing my energy or vibe as a person was also extremely difficult.
I lost my conversation. Now the only words that come out of my mouth during conversations is basically yes and no. Where as I used to have a creative energy about me and used to be a really strong talker. Now I can only talk if I'm complaining like now.
I lost my libido completely and I have no drive now what so ever. When I look at the opposite sex I feel nothing. And my penis is numb.
I feel no emotions what so ever. I am completely numb to everything. I feel no pleasure from doing anything
I have literally no interests or hobbies. The only thing I look forward to is sleeping on a night because for a time I don't have to feel anything. I tell a lie, the only thing I am not numb to is pain. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin twenty four seven and it's just misery all day every day. My body feels like my tomb.
My cognitive abilities have gone out the window
I used to be smarter than what I am now. Now my memory is awful and I have a hard time grasping information and learning since nothing sticks ever since I listened to the voices instructing me to spit on myself and basically repulse myself due to being in psychosis at the time. After the spitting it's like my brain went to mush. I know no one will believe me that it's possible to make yourself dumber by spitting on yourself but it literally happened to me.
I used to have autism. According to doctors. Finding it hard to speak to people. But now I can talk or be around anyone without anxiety ever since I changed. I feel absolutely nothing around anyone. No fear no anxiety no nothing. I know this might not sound like a bad thing but it really is because I feel like I have lost my identity.
I often wish I was born in the USA since I could just buy a gun and shoot myself. But I can't. Why did all of this happen to me. I'm not revealing how I got this way because the history is too long and complex but I often wonder if I am destined to suffer this way. And why. I don't feel like I'm learning anything from this state. It's awful
I just feel tormented all the time. It really does feel like hell. Does anyone know of any methods that are easy fast and pain free? I have literally no quality of life. Please, what would you do if you were in my position? I want to live.but I want to die at the same time. Life is so ridiculously hard.
Losing my energy or vibe as a person was also extremely difficult.
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