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etrnllxid

etrnllxid

blunt
Aug 9, 2023
52
Maybe it's the futility of it all, the only things I seek is momentary pleasure and whatever puts me in a better position. There is people I've loved and people who've loved me but I just can't reciprocate with everything I have, I've been told that I should worry about my future but what is there? I simply exist and I don't want to anymore and that's ok. My time will come regardless if I want to or not but I'd rather expedite it.
 
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GoForDeath

Student
Oct 7, 2021
101
I used to be like that in high school, however since then I've had a passion for programming and I'm actually working it as a job.. yet I still want to die
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
I have no passion for anything either. I never did and I never will. I will always wish to be dead
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,730
I simply don't wish to exist as well, existing has always been so undesirable to me, I've never had any interest in existence. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.
 
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NikWild

Member
Apr 29, 2024
74
The same condition has been in the last few years. Sometimes, of course, it changes, but not for long. It looks like bipolar.
 
idreamofwires

idreamofwires

Member
Apr 20, 2024
8
I've pretty much lost interest in all my hobbies. I don't have the energy to be engaged to them anymore. I feel dead inside and feel like the "old me" is gone. I'm bipolar II and all my meds do is make me depressed. No more manic energy. I realize that I did a lot of damage with that manic energy but I also did good things, too. Now I do nothing but sleep and eat and plan for the day I'll CTB.
 

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