Venting I have no energy to attempt.

[goodbad&ugly777]

I really wanna ctb still, but recently I've just been so tired and exhausted after I get home from school I just lay in bed and do nothing. I'm still miserable and my parents are making it even worse. I've broke down crying infront of them and still they don't care. I wanna ctb so bad, however my method (ligature strangulation) I just can't get right, and I have no energy to try anything. I sleep well too which is the weirdest part. I should have more than enough energy to get myself out of bed and try to ctb but no. I literally can't. I just have no energy.

Anyways, I'm just venting cause I have nobody but also if anyone has any suggestions on ways I can ctb. I've honestly been thinking about suicide by cop but I feel like that's super unrealistic and also super selfish and I'd just be traumatizing some poor officer by killing a high schooler. So that's it. I'm keeping an open mind so any advice or suggestions or whatever would be awesome! Thanks, luv yall :)

 

[Off_Switch]

Why are you going to school if you plan to die?

 

[RazzleDazzle]

This could be an underlying health issue. Depression can also cause fatigue. Maybe work on getting the fatigue checked out and see where you're at.

And I do understand, I have health issues which cause me extreme fatigue and it's really debilitating. But it's worth getting it checked out with a doctor before doing anything else.

 

[goodbad&ugly777]

Why are you going to school if you plan to die?

Parents making me go. When I don't go they tend to yell at me so I just go to school to save myself the trouble. I don't feel as bad that way.

 

[Off_Switch]

I would tell you to do what I did...which is skip school and do other things. But I regret doing that. Try not to take this opportunity for granted if you can.