I have my SN… think I’m ready to go

[endoflife766]

I have my SN and think I am ready to go. One bad decision has ruined my life and I can't forgive myself. The pain I'm suffering is too much. I'm a shell of my former self, can barely get out of bed and function. I just want the pain to go away. The only thing holding me back is the pain that some describe with SN. Should I be worried? What can I expect?

 

[FuneralCry]

From what I read SN just sounds like it's unpleasant and uncomfortable rather than painful exactly. Existing is what is more painful instead, but anyway I wish you the best and I hope that you find the freedom you wish for.

 

[endoflife766]

From what I read SN just sounds like it's unpleasant and uncomfortable rather than painful exactly. Existing is what is more painful instead, but anyway I wish you the best and I hope that you find the freedom you wish for.

I've seen your name a lot from lurking on the site. What symptoms do you think I need to prepare for?

 

[glitterypearls]

It's different for everyone. this and this might help.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've seen your name a lot from lurking on the site. What symptoms do you think I need to prepare for?

There are threads about SN in the suicide resource compilation, it says it in there.

 

[Sparr0w]

yomfph, i've posted abt the symptoms before but i cant be assed to find it so i'll just wrote it out again lol

taking it:
nausea (with no antiemetics, you'll throw up at least once), rapidly beating heart, headache, burning throat, and weak legs.

after a failed attempt:
vision fucky wuckiness (temporary), throwing up every few hours for 48hr, "pain", sensitive stomach for a week, bladder issues for a week, cognitive issues that mostly or fully have gone away by a year.
from most fails i've seen you'll walk it off just fine with vitamin C and/or a hospital trip, which is much better than a lot of other methods.