I Have My SN Ready

[depresso_expresso03]

I have my two cups of SN ready. Both 50 mL of water with 20 g of SN, one cup is a backup. The water has a yellowish tint to it, but it's been fully dissolved. Right now, all I need to do is drink it.

My SI is kicking in. I had previously been on a cliff, right at the edge, ready to jump. But my SN kicked in and I didn't. I immediately regretted it. Similarly, I've been wanting to take SN for as long as I've known it was a method. Now that it's in the cup, ready for me to drink it, I want to back out. But I know I will immediately regret it once I do.

I don't know.

 

[Unwr!tten]

Well, if you're not ready, don't do it. Plain and simple.

If you are ready, make sure you've done all the correct steps to be safe and peaceful on your journey.

 

[uniqueusername39]

I have my two cups of SN ready. Both 50 mL of water with 20 g of SN, one cup is a backup. The water has a yellowish tint to it, but it's been fully dissolved. Right now, all I need to do is drink it.

My SI is kicking in. I had previously been on a cliff, right at the edge, ready to jump. But my SN kicked in and I didn't. I immediately regretted it. Similarly, I've been wanting to take SN for as long as I've known it was a method. Now that it's in the cup, ready for me to drink it, I want to back out. But I know I will immediately regret it once I do.

I don't know.

do you think you could pinpoint the cause of it? are you afraid of the discomfort? anything you're afraid of leaving behind and things that still need to be settled?

 

[DominionMinion]

please dm me the source

 

[Vizzy]

I have my two cups of SN ready. Both 50 mL of water with 20 g of SN, one cup is a backup. The water has a yellowish tint to it, but it's been fully dissolved. Right now, all I need to do is drink it.

My SI is kicking in. I had previously been on a cliff, right at the edge, ready to jump. But my SN kicked in and I didn't. I immediately regretted it. Similarly, I've been wanting to take SN for as long as I've known it was a method. Now that it's in the cup, ready for me to drink it, I want to back out. But I know I will immediately regret it once I do.

I don't know.

Did you drink it?

 

[Source Energy]

I'm doing it tomorrow too. My SI manifests in extreme sadness and mourning for myself. But there is no other way for me.
Is there another way for you? Any hope at all? If so, stall it. If not...1,2,3 and gulp it down like a vodka shot
SI can be a real pain.
I wish you peace and happiness either way.

 

[depresso_expresso03]

do you think you could pinpoint the cause of it? are you afraid of the discomfort? anything you're afraid of leaving behind and things that still need to be settled?

The actual act of doing it, that's what I'm afraid of. I do not want to be here anymore, but I can't for the life of me drink this SN and I do not know why.

Did you drink it?

Not yet, no. Been on and off of my phone for the past few hours with the mix on a table right beside me.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Please dm me the sources

You really think this is appropriate when someone wants to leave?

 

[Vizzy]

The actual act of doing it, that's what I'm afraid of. I do not want to be here anymore, but I can't for the life of me drink this SN and I do not know why.

Not yet, no. Been on and off of my phone for the past few hours with the mix on a table right beside me.

Don't keep the mix outside for so long after mixing, if you not gonna do now just throw it and do the mix whenever you are ready

Make sure you sealed the remaining sn which are left over!

 

[dimstar]

Si really sneaks up on you even with sn. What ever you decide were here for you. Sending you a hug❤

 

[squirley]

Don't you need to
Fast for a day
Take anti puke meds
Benzos ?
And prep a bunch ?

Just wondering, read a bunch of different threads.

Didn't know you could just have it and drink and done.

Good luck either way.

 

[uniqueusername39]

Don't you need to
Fast for a day
Take anti puke meds
Benzos ?
And prep a bunch ?

Just wondering, read a bunch of different threads.

Didn't know you could just have it and drink and done.

Good luck either way.

well yeah. those other drugs are intended to make the passing peaceful.

 

[HerculePoirot]

If SI is stronger than your desire of death, then you're not ready, so don't do it, at least not yet. In this situation, SI can be a useful mechanism. Keep your precious SN for the time you're really okay for a peaceful death. Maybe later today, maybe next week, maybe next year. When you are fully ready, you will know for sure, and death will come naturally. All the best.

 

[squirley]

You have any to spare by chance ?
My insanity would greatly appreciate some.
I've been ready to go.
Failed attempts. Other factors.
Can't hurt to ask.

Good luck with whatever you choose.

 

[Letgo]

How are you? Did you drink it? I hope you a tr ecat peace and that you thought it over...

 

[FuneralCry]

At least having the option of the reliable method means that you aren't trapped here and have a way to leave for when the time is right, I think that those who can access SN in this world where it's becoming more and more difficult to obtain certainly are fortunate. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[depresso_expresso03]

Thank you everyone. When trying to down the SN last night I took a tiny sip (just tasted like really strong salt water), but ended up throwing the rest of the ~40g out that I had already diluted (cup + backup cup). Since it was a 100g bottle I got, I should have ~60g left. I'm fortunate to have it, so I'll need to conserve it for when I'm certain I will be able to down it. As some here have mentioned, I'll know when it's time, whenever that might be.

Thank you all

 

[clockwork_cat]

Can someone dm or tell me where to get some?

 

[sickbeyondmeasure]

Can someone please DM me as well on how to get some as well as antiemetics. Please and thank you.

 

[Prime0]

Can someone DM me how to get sn?

 

[Meatshell]

Would appreciate a DM as well ❤

 

[Jezzibell]

Whats wrong with you people? Sending one liners to ask for the source and zero empathy with OP. Its inappropriate and callous.

 

[Lawliet]

Whats wrong with you people? Sending one liners to ask for the source and zero empathy with OP. Its inappropriate and callous.

ESPECIALLY from people with like less than 20 posts

 

[sulli]

four in a row asking for sources omfg

 

[Jezzibell]

four in a row asking for sources omfg

It's disgusting. These posters are absolute dregs of society and unfortunately the me me me seems here to stay.

 

[clockwork_cat]

It's disgusting. These posters are absolute dregs of society and unfortunately the me me me seems here to stay.

I'm sorry for being impolite. I used to be able to feel more empathetic but it's like my brain is just desperate for a way out.

I am a dreg of society and I think about my own self and pain too much, it's disgusting. Just another reason to want out.

Either way, OP I apologize for being reckless on your post and I wish you a good journey, wherever that may be.

 

[OceanBlue]

I can relate, it's hard to take the final step. SI mixed with illusions getting in a way.

You have any to spare by chance ?

I think it's against the rules to share/sell, but it would be nice if we could without repercussions.

 

[sickbeyondmeasure]

Yes I apologize. I'm in in tremendous pain and bedridden. I'm sincerely looking for a way out. I by no means lack any empathy for OP's situation.

 

[squirley]

It's disgusting. These posters are absolute dregs of society and unfortunately the me me me seems here to stay.

And what are you to society?
If you're so understanding why don't you consider other people's ability to get straight to the point.
And not get involved in others situations.
By showing empathy, anger , etc.

Look at both my posts before you choose what to highlight and dislike. And not control your emotions over. And label me as "you people"

I understand if it's a fresh account , 1 post etc.

Some people are not as sensitive or have the abilities to express certain feelings. For themselves or others.
And are here for different reasons.

so before you call people dregs of society take a look in the mirror.
And have understanding of everyone not just who you choose. Or what you choose.

I said good luck either way.
And that's fair enough.

 

[jorheslen428]

Whats wrong with you people? Sending one liners to ask for the source and zero empathy with OP. Its inappropriate and callous.

It's disgusting. These posters are absolute dregs of society and unfortunately the me me me seems here to stay.

You're calling out a lack of empathy and then insulting desperate suicidal people. If that's not hypocrisy, I don't know what is.

Let's not name call, please.