By the time this is posted, I will have drunk around 18g of SN in 50ml of distilled water. I am not taking an antiemetic; I'm only taking ibuprofen (painkiller for the pain), though I took some Tums for my heartburn some hours prior. I'm writing this in advance so that I have enough time to hide things before I lose consciousness, and to make sure that I post this once I actually go through with it.
Unlike other cases I've read about here, I'm drinking the combination while my family is home. I'm well aware that this scenario increases the chances of being saved, but I'm at peace with either outcome: death and resuscitation. Part of me wishes to die in the hospital as that might save my family from the surprise of seeing my discolored corpse, but I know that that would be difficult to pull off. I'm aware how incredibly selfish this is, but I have to go through with this action no matter the outcome.
I might not answer much since I want to make sure this website is not up on my phone by the time unconsciousness sets in, so I might just close this secret browser and focus on listening to music, in case I lose motor functions.
Although I lurked for about a month now, and have officially joined only a few days ago, I want to thank you all for this amazing community that I'm glad I stumbled upon by accident.
If I don't answer to this thread in less than two weeks, in the case that I'm saved and held involuntarily in the hospital again, then that will mean that this attempt was succesful.
All that said, I'm honestly afraid and anxious yet relieved to have consumed this poison.
Unlike other cases I've read about here, I'm drinking the combination while my family is home. I'm well aware that this scenario increases the chances of being saved, but I'm at peace with either outcome: death and resuscitation. Part of me wishes to die in the hospital as that might save my family from the surprise of seeing my discolored corpse, but I know that that would be difficult to pull off. I'm aware how incredibly selfish this is, but I have to go through with this action no matter the outcome.
I might not answer much since I want to make sure this website is not up on my phone by the time unconsciousness sets in, so I might just close this secret browser and focus on listening to music, in case I lose motor functions.
Although I lurked for about a month now, and have officially joined only a few days ago, I want to thank you all for this amazing community that I'm glad I stumbled upon by accident.
If I don't answer to this thread in less than two weeks, in the case that I'm saved and held involuntarily in the hospital again, then that will mean that this attempt was succesful.
All that said, I'm honestly afraid and anxious yet relieved to have consumed this poison.
