Discussion I have everything I need at home but I’m still here… I need a push

[stupidhuman]

I bought 300 Euro worth of CTB (Intert Gas) Equipment. I could do it any time now - but I'm still here.

I hate how my body and "instinctive" mind does not want this.

What are ways to calm them down ? I have benzo but I think the defense mechanism is strong.

I would hate doing something with grave consequences that'd push me over the edge but maybe that's the only way….

I can't believe I'm still alive, if there's an afterlife with all that judgement shit going on it'll be very cringe

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

If I could, I'd join you

 

[Life'sA6itch]

Maybe that is simply not the way for you to go, maybe you don't want to go? If you could simply fall unconscious or asleep and never wake again, is that an offer you'd immediately act upon or would you waffle back and forth as you are now?

There is absolutely nothing wrong with not wanting to ctb and if you don't that's OK. Find peace whatever way you can.

 

[TAW122]

Since SaSu is a pro-choice platform, nobody is allowed to push one to any choice and it would be up to the individual to decide whether one is going to go on their own terms or continue sentience. Anyways, I would suppose part of the hesitation would be in the fact that our biological instinct, the survival instinct (self-preservation instinct) is something that keeps all of us from going, some people manage to override it whether due to their circumstances being bad enough that it naturally suppresses their own self-preservation instinct or even through astronomical will-power, or even a combination of both. As an atheist myself, I would claim that rationally and logically speaking, I don't believe there is an afterlife, because prior to me coming into existence, I was non-sentient and did not experience anything before being conceived. I wish you peace in whatever decision you decide to make.

 

[ThisIsLife]

if there's an afterlife with all that judgement shit going on it'll be very cringe

There's no judgement in the afterlife