Venting I hate this feeling of emptiness

[walaman]

ever since i was 12 ive been feeling empty and i hate every ounce of it. I can't feel anything, pain, empathy all of it. People bullied me for being robot and i cant even be mad at them as they are right. I can only take it out on myself for being a fucking miserable person. Most of my "friend" even left me because of this and i cant even tell my feeling out because i feel like im just being an attention whore since being depressed and having social anxiety are now just trend for people to act "cute". As more people left because of what i am, the hole grew larger and im not sure i can survive it.