Venting I hate myself (part 2)

[ineed2die]

i am worthless

i dont care about myself

i like to hurt myself and self harm on occasion. I like tto waste my money,, binge eat/drink, do drugs,, fight with people, and make posts like this.

when other people dislike me, i get happy and feel content and less anxious

life is stressful
life is diffiucult

I am filled with anger and hatred. But I really only hate myself and I look forward to a day where I die alone.
I deserve all of this, btw. If you are sad you "deserve" (it was inevitable, more accurately) it..