I hate life so much

[anhedonicNfoggy]

I feel so trapped

I hate that it's so difficult to kill oneself bc biology and society

At this point, I'd be grateful if someone were to murder me

I don't want to spend like 60 more years alive

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful feeling trapped here, I also despise existing, I find it so incredibly inhumane how we cannot just leave in peace in a guaranteed way, it really should be easier to permanently escape from this existence, I find it so horrible the thought of potentially enduring this existence for decades longer.

 

[Mxverick]

This site exists for this problem, for the good of people who suffer every day and would like to CTB.

 

[Vladislav Reznikov]

I often times contemplate suicide by cop but it just feels wrong to me I don't want to mess someone else's brain up like mine from such a traumatic event.

 

[John Ryder]

I often times contemplate suicide by cop but it just feels wrong to me I don't want to mess someone else's brain up like mine from such a traumatic event.

I considered it very strongly for a couple weeks. Cops here are some incompetent fucks so it could have gone extremely well or extremely badly moral implications aside

 

[Vladislav Reznikov]

I considered it very strongly for a couple weeks. Cops here are some incompetent fucks so it could have gone extremely well or extremely badly moral implications aside

I would love to get into a shootout with gang members but I don't feel like traveling to a liberal shithole city that has them

 

[John Ryder]

I would love to get into a shootout with gang members but I don't feel like traveling to a liberal shithole city that has them

So I guess you won't be hitching that last ride to the stars from Portland? Sir think of the weed though

 

[XenoPyo]

Certainly can understand how you feel. My body just feels like its holding me captive here.

 

[Vladislav Reznikov]

So I guess you won't be hitching that last ride to the stars from Portland? Sir think of the weed though

Lol I have access to good weed and no Portlandia should be nuked

 

[John Ryder]

I have access to good weed

But you're on sasu? I just assum--

 

[Vladislav Reznikov]

What the hell is sasu? No offense I'm genuinely curious

 

[John Ryder]

What the hell is sasu? No offense I'm genuinely curious

Here, sanctioned. Just shorthand

 

[Vladislav Reznikov]

But you're on sasu? I just assum--

Thanks for the knowledge sir

 

[jbear824]

I also do not want to live another 60 years OP. Hell I don't even want to make it to 40. I hate how difficult it is to die. Unless you are lucky enough to have something physical that causes you immense suffering, you're basically stuck either being trapped in life, or condemned to some painful, traumatic exit either at your own hand or waiting until nature strikes you down.

I have too many barriers to ctb. Short of assisted euthanasia with the real drugs that allow painless and peaceful exit, I am basically condemned to die at the hands of nature. And since I'm going to be permanently homeless before this year is done, I have these possible deaths to look forward to:

Hypothermia
Starvation
Dehydration
Diabetes
Heat stroke/exhaustion

I'm thrilled of course. Thrilled that I have such long and painful suffering to look forward to.

 

[Aloneisbestforme]

Understandable.

After realizing what life has to offer and how hard it is to ctb it would make alot of people hate life.
not only that we were brought here without even asking so we didn't even consent to live in this hellhole for who knows how long

 

[byebyemadworld]

I hate that it is so difficult to CTB.
I'm terrified of failing and having brain damage. Also doesn't help that I'm pressed for time.
I wish that I had a OFF button on my body that I could push and then I would be dead.

 

[Meteora]

I feel so trapped

I hate that it's so difficult to kill oneself bc biology and society

At this point, I'd be grateful if someone were to murder me

I don't want to spend like 60 more years alive

Fell the exact same. Trapped. Unable to do it myself. Influenced mainly by society.
You ar not allone....