Venting I hate interacting with the outsider world

[Haibane-renmei-reki]

I am typically a Hikikomori meaning i have a very minimum interaction with other people including my family, today i had to do an errand where i had to buy something from someone, i had to carry some stuff and i acted like a clumsy retard a lot of the time my social skills were also abysmally poor, had to repeat phrases to sound clearer, i just don't know how to expres my thoughts easily in the verbal form, even going to a store puraaching stuff and doing small talk is hard for me, i struggle to understand others when they talk to me and be understood, i am retarded and i can't seem to function in this world

 

[timf]

Some people are born with a more typical neurology that is more reflexive. Others have a neurology that presents them with the world that seems to require manual control. This can be inhibiting as each possible social action is contemplated and consideration of multiple possibilities and their consequences can be taxing.

If reflex or automatic control is not achievable, it can be approximated through the accumulation of various social tools like self-deprecating comments to excuse the blunders we all make. For example, "I'm sorry. I was sick the day they taught how not to drop things in school."

One advantage of living in a superficial world is that most people do not pay that much attention to us. If you view your infrequent social encounters as opportunities to experiment, you might find that you can develop better skills for navigating the social world.