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miserywonderland

miserywonderland

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Aug 14, 2025
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im so TIRED!!!!! all the time everything is exhausting. after every day theres another. being awake is exhausting and life is torture. how do people live???? doing basic tasks like showering or cleaning is possible. i dont take care of my hair anymore, i dont shave, my rooms messy, etc. its slowly starting to show too, my hairs frizzy, my nails unkept, my skin js getting bad, im unorganized. DEPRESSION IS SO EMBARRASSING!!!! i cant even leave bed most days. not to mention the mental parts. i cant think straight or holds thoughts. i get names and words mixed up and even forget them. my speech has gotten bad. i dont do any of hobbies anymore either. i just rot. i cant live like this anymore
 
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Nightfoot

Mage
Aug 7, 2025
549
Depression can be devastating, there's no need for embarrassment. I'm sorry you're suffering and I hope things get better for you.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,472
Me too. So much I can't do anymore. I get the thought to, but then can't muster myself. Lately I have done a little better, but I am nowhere near the person I used to be. I continue to try to conjure that person however. I think I just made it to a certain age , and decided it's over now. No point in even trying anymore.
 
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chek

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Aug 30, 2025
30
I'm the same. I'm embarrassing to myself. I look awful
 
dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
927
I'm a mess too. Depression has crippled me. I spend most days in bed praying to die. I am embarrassed as to what I have become but try to remember it is a disease. Even so, this disease will be the end of me sooner or later.
 
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badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
I'm able to do basic hygiene things most of the time, but i can't make any effort to move my life forward in any meaningful direction. I'm stuck in time. We live in a hell realm. i really really hope if their is an afterlife, that it's kinder than this place.
 
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