Venting i hate everything so much

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i really hate everything so much. i hate everyone so much. i dont know why i do but i just do. i really just want to die right now but i dont have anything so i cant, and i wouldnt be thinking rationally if i did right now. although i hate everything i hate myself the most and i dont wanna sleep because that would mean i would have to wake up again