Venting i hate being trans

[sleepydeaths]

venting here so i don't make said friend feel bad

a friend (fellow trans man) sent a picture of his cut hair and it made me feel extremely dysphoric and hateful of my own (not transitioned yet, unable to) feminine appearance and how i refer to myself in masculine terms, but i don't pass or look it at all.

i hate being trans, i hate being stuck in a body that doesn't feel like mine, i hate feeling jealous of someone else when im supposed to be happy for him, especially my own friend.

i wish iwas aborted. that would've been a mercy. i wish i had a method

 

[00ps]

another trans man here, my heart goes out to you. it sucks that you cannot transition and i am so fucking sorry. when i was unable to transition it was suffocating and i felt like i was drowning. i cannot imagine how you're feeling seeing your friends be able to transition when you cannot. i'm sending you some internet hugs that i hope will reach you

 

[RawRX3]

[Transfem] Def feel <3 wish trading was a thing, would make life so much easier
Sending all the support, care and love <3 <3 <3