I hate being black

[BlazingBob]

I think there's more racial division today than there was when I was growing up in the 70s and 80s. It's sad. We've definitely gone backwards. It's all part of the elites plan to keep us divided. Easier to control that way.

 

[losing hope]

I think there's more racial division today than there was when I was growing up in the 70s and 80s. It's sad. We've definitely gone backwards. It's all part of the elites plan to keep us divided. Easier to control that way.

1000% agree with this & I've been saying this very thing for years!!!

I think the reason for that is the internet & social media & as Brexit in the UK proved, these days it is very easy to spread propogranda on social media/internet. Like the below poster which made some Brits vote for Brexit. 8 odd years on from Brexit, the UK is worse off economically & none of the benefits promised have been delivered (i.e. £350 million pw extra to the NHS).

Ironically, I see more immigration of Brown people into the UK, in the coming years as a result of Brexit. And when that happens, I see race riots developing & us going back to 1930's Germany....So for me, ctb'ing is like getting out of 1930's Nazi Germany, as a jewish person, whilst I still can!!!


Since I don't agree with the UK gov & the direction it is heading (i.e. anti ctb'ing etc). Also been racially abused especially in the last few years. I will therefore be taking up all the NHS & doctors resources I can & have them all running around like headless chickens after me until I ctb. As is my democratic right. Would urge others to do the same!

The best way to sabotage the Nazi's is pissing inside the tent (not outside the tent), if you catch my drift . Becausing by pissing inside the tent, you cause more damage. The terriost groups & bombers were pissing outside the tent, hence it wasn't very productive, what they did.

 

[Geengezondementalit]

Totally relate to the above comments RE; parents projecting their own insecurities on to their children when they say stuff like "you hang around with too many white kids." Was called a "coconut" by my family as a kid, because I was white on the inside brown on the outside. In reality, I looked beyond people's skin colour, my family couldn't & still can't. Learnt the other day Lookism is a real thing. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lookism

Oh & BTW anyone who says forget about your race etc, well you CAN'T because others constantly remind you. For example, I've written a couple of books (one of which is trad published). Well I put my foreign, sounding name on the front cover of the first edition. Didn't sell many copies.

Made one small change, replaced my foreign souinding name with a traditional name, which you might expect an author to sound like (Tom Gerald). And you know what, that one change led to book sales up by more than 4x's.

Welcome to post brexit UK people. Or as I like to call it. Nazi Land.

what book have you written? I want to read it!

 

[losing hope]

what book have you written? I want to read it!

There on F1. Here is the link; 1994: The Untold Story of a Tragic and Controversial F1 Season - performancepublishing.co.uk that link contains a free sample. Here is a review of the book but obv do your own research;

"1994: The Untold Story" F1 book review · RaceFans

This is my other book on Lotus Team Lotus: Beyond the Colin Chapman Era: Malik, Ibrar: 9798638899936: Amazon.com: Books & you can find reviews of it here:

https://www.amazon.com/Team-Lotus-Beyond-Colin-Chapman/dp/B087L72WJQ

 

[CozyTime]

It sounds like she is a reason as to why your life can't even get the chance to potentially flourish. I know what it feels like to have your identity questioned by the people who are supposed to love and support you the most.

While I have never been in your situation I simply wish to express my support and that I think in better more understanding and supportive surroundings you'll be able to feel like yourself so much more and will never really 2nd guess it like these interactions can make one do.

So I hope that you are able to one day and of course that your suffering overall will cease.

 

[Angel_01]

For me, I've always felt like being black is a terrible burden (racism, discrimination, colorism, etc) and probably 50% of my reasons for wanting to die would disappear if I was any other race.

If it's not non-black people being disgusting to you for existing, it's other black people feeling justified in harassing you for being different from what's deemed normal.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

For me, I've always felt like being black is a terrible burden (racism, discrimination, colorism, etc) and probably 50% of my reasons for wanting to die would disappear if I was any other race.

If it's not non-black people being disgusting to you for existing, it's other black people feeling justified in harassing you for being different from what's deemed normal.

I've worked with people from all over the world. The common denominator? Greed and status. That's it. They DGAF about race or any of this. Problem isn't even race. It's the 1% vs everyone else. That's the problem for housing, finances, way of life, community, etc.

I'm mixed (let's say one country is pretty close to Africa) and at secondary school I wasn't "allowed" into the black group. One friend I had was in that group (we loved playing GameCube together) but my autism saw a pattern that I couldn't be there because the majority of them said no. And this is the UK where nobody really gives a shit about race.

After 35 I think the only race that is worth it is dogs, birds, elephants, giraffes, etc. way better. People are complete garbage regardless of race.

 

[restless.dreams]

I'm sorry you are being treated this way. Hoping you are able to find support in your friends, and surround yourself with people who accept YOU just as you are <3

 

[eatantz]

I'm biracial, when I was younger I never really cared. Everything goes downhill when you grow up, I hated being black during the 2020 BLM movement but I realised I don't hate being black, I hate society and people for creating racism

 

[goodoldnoname923]

Sometimes it feels like from birth I already failed because of my race. Obviously there's a lot of other reasons why I want to kill myself, but sometimes it feels like I was destined to fail.

It feels like whenever I do something to make myself happier it always backfires in my face. I wore my hair natural over the summer because I like it better that way and now all my edges are gone. I have to get all these crazy and painful fucking braids and don't like braiding my hair. And what's even worse is that my fucking mom says that I'm doing it for peer pressure and following all the white people, like she thinks I don't have a mind of fucking my own and that I can't do things for myself. That if I want to change something that mUst MeAN hER WhItE FrieNds sAy sO. She even once started complaining because I "only ever hang out with white people"?

The friends I make have nothing to do with race but for some reason that's the shit she always jumps to whenever anything happens, and it pisses me off. I can't wait to die.

It's horrible we live in a world we're people have to feel shame for their skin not being a certain colour,their sexual preference being considered "abnormal", for having the wrong part in your undies or even being born in a certain part of the world

All forms of prejudice are disgusting and frankly i hate it…