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forgivemegod

I have a chronic disease
Jun 26, 2025
72
The only reason I am suicidal is because I have a chronic disease that was caused by a doctor's mistake, and now I have to live with this killer pain, and now I have doctors who don't knoe jackshit on how to treat it. Therapy is the most money grabbing thing in the world, it literally don't do anything, I just do it because I am forced to do it since I was in a psych ward. I just want to kill myself so bad and it's so hard to fucking do it.
 
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Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
809
I hate everything about medicine too. I'm so sorry that doctors crippled you, something similar happened to me. Yes, overcoming the instinct for self-preservation is probably the hardest thing in the world
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
I have a few doctors in my family and let me tell you. They flounder in the dark. Know why they keep asking you to do tests? Tests and sometimes more tests. Some people think they're just trying to overcharge them. But it's actually because the doctors don't know Jack ****.They keep looking at your reports and scratching their heads trying to pinpoint what you're going through, but they have no idea.


It's very disturbing. It's like they have a certification just to be able to play with your lives. They'll try medication that might harm you. They'll make mistakes during surgery like cut off your salivary gland and cause you to never be able to chew food again. I knew a woman whose salivary gland got cut off during surgery and she couldn't chew her food and her mouth would stick closed because you need saliva in order to keep your mouth normal.very disturbing. Interestingly enough, she was a nurse herself. She died a few years later, all because of a mistake a doctor made.


Another nurse handed a patient the wrong medication and she died. Instantly.

There are so many horror stories like this. Let's not even get into anesthetists.

I have seen so many people suffering from medication on this site. It's a very terrible,unfortunate thing.Some children are forced by their parents to go get help. But that doesn't really help them. It only makes things worse, causes terrible injuries, and worsens things.
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Paragon
May 28, 2024
942
As a former, (very low level) medical professional, I was always hyper aware of what I was doing for this reason. It's alchemy at the end of the day.
 
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Tired_birth_1967

Student
Nov 1, 2023
184
Another silly thought (I have many): I've always had a problem with people who make money off of other people's misfortune. They seem like cogs in an indifferent mechanism. The reality is that life is ridiculous in any aspect we look at carefully. Always the same struggle for survival. The doctor only exists because he also needs to survive. Even if his money comes from your pain.
 
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numbeyesopen26

Member
Jun 27, 2025
26
I agree with you. I've had a few therapists that I never saw any growth with and I'm sure they saw that too but kept asking me for money and sessions. I had to stop that. And doctors.. hate them, they lie a lot. I think there are good therapists out there but it's hard to find.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
The only reason I am suicidal is because I have a chronic disease that was caused by a doctor's mistake, and now I have to live with this killer pain, and now I have doctors who don't knoe jackshit on how to treat it. Therapy is the most money grabbing thing in the world, it literally don't do anything, I just do it because I am forced to do it since I was in a psych ward. I just want to kill myself so bad and it's so hard to fucking do it.
Ya I hate when people suggest therapy.
Everybody in the world knows it's a lost cause, and they're pushing you to other people bc they don't want you to die and can't figure out a way to help you either.
 
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unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,241
i hate them too because most of them humiliated me. giving to them, "all is in my head", but then i've found 2 diseases because of googling myself, and these 2 diseases were diagnosed as well. i don't trust them anymore. anyway in a few years, AI will be better than doctors. a doctor said it on TV... he also said AI has more compassion than real doctors... but he also said than human being is going to live 1000 years (what a nigtmare !!!)
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,157
anyway in a few years, AI will be better than doctors. a doctor said it on TV... he also said AI has more compassion than real doctors

First off, AI isn't capable of true compassion because it's not a living being. It's a program designed to basically please its user. Along with that, since AI was created by humans, it will still likely suffer from of the same biases that we have, including social biases.

Secondly, doctors will still be around in the future. AI might be used as a tool for diagnosing certain illnesses, but it likely won't replace doctors and it isn't better than them.

Thirdly, is this person you are talking about even a real doctor? They seem to be making a lot of big claims that don't have any evidence to back them up.
 
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possessed

Member
Aug 10, 2024
58
Thank you for sharing your story, this really makes me think. I generally have pretty bad experiences with mental health doctors, psychologists and therapists. Maybe I should also look at the physical ones in a different light.
 
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Outsidelessness

Outsidelessness

Zero is immense
Feb 13, 2023
57
I have a few doctors in my family and let me tell you. They flounder in the dark. Know why they keep asking you to do tests? Tests and sometimes more tests. Some people think they're just trying to overcharge them. But it's actually because the doctors don't know Jack ****.They keep looking at your reports and scratching their heads trying to pinpoint what you're going through, but they have no idea.


It's very disturbing. It's like they have a certification just to be able to play with your lives. They'll try medication that might harm you. They'll make mistakes during surgery like cut off your salivary gland and cause you to never be able to chew food again. I knew a woman whose salivary gland got cut off during surgery and she couldn't chew her food and her mouth would stick closed because you need saliva in order to keep your mouth normal.very disturbing. Interestingly enough, she was a nurse herself. She died a few years later, all because of a mistake a doctor made.


Another nurse handed a patient the wrong medication and she died. Instantly.

There are so many horror stories like this. Let's not even get into anesthetists.

I have seen so many people suffering from medication on this site. It's a very terrible,unfortunate thing.Some children are forced by their parents to go get help. But that doesn't really help them. It only makes things worse, causes terrible injuries, and worsens things.
I can definitely attest to this, I had access to my medical records recently and the amount of shit they misinterpreted on me is utterly insane. It's no wonder they kept mistreating me. Any time I say something different they treat it with a grain of salt because they believe I couldn't maintain a consistent thought when it was from autism and hospice-induced trauma. The most disturbing thing about this is when they make assumptions about you that are completely untrue. Completely fucking insane.
 
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