Venting I hate being around people and being alone.

[xtra_cheesecurds]

I don't understand myself. I can't be around people without hurting them or them leaving me in some way, and I don't want to be alone. My psychiatrist and therapist have admitted they don't know what's wrong with me. I had organ failure because my psychiatrist had put me on so many meds, which all did nothing, and didn't even care. I don't know what to do with my life anymore, it's only been going downhill ever since I was born. My own parents admitted I was a mistake, and I feel awful knowing that. My brother is a pedophile, and I feel like everything in my life is solely for making me aware of the fact that everything gets worse when I'm around. My boyfriend broke up with me a day after I nearly went inpatient, so I don't know what to do. I just hope I CTB sooner or later. I feel like I view my own life in 3rd person and that I just go through the motions of a life.

I apologize if this is ranty, I just feel very alone right now.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Psychologists and therapists generally cannot prescribe medication. Did you mean that your psychiatrist is putting you on a bunch of meds?

 

[piercedwounds]

I'm so sorry ): I hope you find peace eventually. don't feel alone you have this site <33 much love

 

[xtra_cheesecurds]

Psychologists and therapists generally cannot prescribe medication. Did you mean that your psychiatrist is putting you on a bunch of meds?

Yes, my apologies. I tend to get the two words mixed up. <3

 

[baberty]

I hate other people, almost as much as I hate myself. I don't want to be around them, but I don't want to be alone either. I feel you. Deeply.