RadiantNumber
Arcanist
- Mar 2, 2024
- 421
One day I've got good job with good salary, then COVID came, because of this I become bit lazy and slower, I've still have this job until 2023 when I lost this, then I have few others jobs, mainly physical ones, currently I am working in the market and I hate this job.
Today I skipped day in the work simply because I didn't read shift schedule and I am afraid they would fine or fire me (or both) also I have recruicment interview in job which I was fired from, so it won't end well. Without job and money I will die anyway.
The worst part is that all my friends which I helped and other people I've met have normal life now, and some of them were also depressed or pessimistic, like everything giving me signals that everbody would be happy, except me.
I am good in nothing, I can't do nothing, I am looser and disapoitment for my family, I can't even keep one job.
The only way to end this is CTB, but I am too scared to do this, I don't know what to do. I lost everything, now I only want to fall asleep and never wake up
Today I skipped day in the work simply because I didn't read shift schedule and I am afraid they would fine or fire me (or both) also I have recruicment interview in job which I was fired from, so it won't end well. Without job and money I will die anyway.
The worst part is that all my friends which I helped and other people I've met have normal life now, and some of them were also depressed or pessimistic, like everything giving me signals that everbody would be happy, except me.
I am good in nothing, I can't do nothing, I am looser and disapoitment for my family, I can't even keep one job.
The only way to end this is CTB, but I am too scared to do this, I don't know what to do. I lost everything, now I only want to fall asleep and never wake up
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