....I got my SN

[shadow999]

So I got my SN from the Ukrainian source. It came a few days late. It came in a black plastic package taped up with a regular cardboard box inside. Lots of tape. Its is a silver plastic bag with a warning label on it. The stuff seemed pretty hard but it felt like I was able to break it up with just my hands.

I think my therapist knows I want to attempt...ngl I'm a little more nervous about it than I thought. Oh well. I know this is what I want. My family, at least my parents, are going to be devistated. Knowing that definitely makes it a little harder. I just feel so dead inside. Complete anhedonia with no changes. I'm ready to go. I was thinking this Monday.

Anyways just needed to vent briefly.

Thanks for reading and best wishes

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Wishing you the best <3

 

[nir]

It'll be strange not seeing you on the forums anymore. I'm used to seeing your profile pic in the recent posts and always wondering what it is. Gonna be weird to not have you around

 

[shadow999]

It'll be strange not seeing you on the forums anymore. I'm used to seeing your profile pic in the recent posts and always wondering what it is. Gonna be weird to not have you around

Its just a random abstract animal that I drew. This forum has been so good to me ='). It's definitely not easy to make this decision. I know I don't want this life anymore...just exiting is difficult. I'm planning on posting when I take the stuff...I just have to be careful as I don't want this site to be on the phone when I pass out.

 

[nir]

Its just a random abstract animal that I drew. This forum has been so good to me ='). It's definitely not easy to make this decision. I know I don't want this life anymore...just exiting is difficult. I'm planning on posting when I take the stuff...I just have to be careful as I don't want this site to be on the phone when I pass out.

In my head, I always see it as an abstract Zapdos from Pokemon.

I'm glad we've been a source of comfort for you. Remember you can always delay if needed - we won't judge you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find peace from all the suffering, best wishes.

 

[athiestjoe]

Wishing you peace & serenity.

 

[Trav1989]

So I got my SN from the Ukrainian source. It came a few days late. It came in a black plastic package taped up with a regular cardboard box inside. Lots of tape. Its is a silver plastic bag with a warning label on it. The stuff seemed pretty hard but it felt like I was able to break it up with just my hands.

I think my therapist knows I want to attempt...ngl I'm a little more nervous about it than I thought. Oh well. I know this is what I want. My family, at least my parents, are going to be devistated. Knowing that definitely makes it a little harder. I just feel so dead inside. Complete anhedonia with no changes. I'm ready to go. I was thinking this Monday.

Anyways just needed to vent briefly.

Thanks for reading and best wishes

Same exact packaging as mine from the same source. I have been pondering when to use mine, I've had it about a week and I'm ready to go but I feel the need for a final push. I've been dating a woman for a short while now and I figured I'd give it my all and if things don't work out I'll at least know I tried my best.

 

[ArteriesBindEveryon]

What does it feel like to have it? You literally have your death in the palm of your hand.

 

[shadow999]

What does it feel like to have it? You literally have your death in the palm of your hand.

mostly it's s relief. Finally there is a way to end the suffering.

 

[Theresnoescape]

Good luck with whatever you decide.