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Kirke

Kirke

It's better to burn out than to fade away
Dec 26, 2025
11
Have you been in this situation?

I met him and started feeling a bit better. I stopped planning to obtain some of the materials needed for my ctb. But now that I know of his issues it feels like a load on my shoulders, it's like the world is grey (and has always been this way). I've returned to my plans, because I feel that there is some chance it could end up in double ctb.

There are no ideal partners and the word 'love' is a verb for a reason. But I feel like I'm too weak, you understand? It feels like me and him are surviving in dark woods.
 
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sinnrr-sistrr

sinnrr-sistrr

le canva Ă  ma lame
Apr 13, 2026
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I know it's not ideal, but there's something about those relationships with broken people that I kinda love?

Maybe it's that feeling of being understood, maybe it's because talking about your SI feels less like walking on eggshells, maybe it's because I feel like I get to help someone as much as they help me, idk but I've had deep friendships and relationship with people with whom I relate more on depression and stuff.

Is there something you don't like about it? Is it that you feel like you have to bear his emotions on top of yours? Have you talked to him about it?
 
knowledgeseeking

knowledgeseeking

Experienced
Apr 5, 2025
268
Have you been in this situation?

I met him and started feeling a bit better. I stopped planning to obtain some of the materials needed for my ctb. But now that I know of his issues it feels like a load on my shoulders, it's like the world is grey (and has always been this way). I've returned to my plans, because I feel that there is some chance it could end up in double ctb.

There are no ideal partners and the word 'love' is a verb for a reason. But I feel like I'm too weak, you understand? It feels like me and him are surviving in dark woods.
You must survive in the dark woods, it's better not to do it alone.

I hope you continue to explore and lean on each other. We all find partners that fit us in all kinds of situations and you are lucky to have found someone in your dark situation.

I wish you both the best and who knows, maybe together you will pull each other out of the darkness.
 

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