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Cat5050
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- Feb 5, 2021
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Not really. It can be a bit sad to see some members that have been with us a long time CTB, but I'm mostly just happy for them to not have to deal with this shitty world anymore.Do you agree?
Me too... I'm envious of their confidence, everyone here seems so damn 100% confident they're going to succeed in their attempt. I'm so jealous, I wish I could say the same. I've been trying to kill myself for the last 18 years, and none of my methods (hanging, overdose) have ever worked. I have no money, no access to anti emetics, I do have SN, but I have severe GI issues. I just don't know what to do, I'm too afraid of jumping off a bridge or a building. I'm literally stuck in a prison. I have nightmares about being in a state prison or going to one and coming to terms with it.It's bad to say- but I get envious.
Me too mate, been trying to kill myself for the last 10 years. At this point I'm at the end of my tether.Me too... I'm envious of their confidence, everyone here seems so damn 100% confident they're going to succeed in their attempt. I'm so jealous, I wish I could say the same. I've been trying to kill myself for the last 18 years, and none of my methods (hanging, overdose) have ever worked. I have no money, no access to anti emetics, I do have SN, but I have severe GI issues. I just don't know what to do, I'm too afraid of jumping off a bridge or a building. I'm literally stuck in a prison. I have nightmares about being in a state prison or going to one and coming to terms with it.
This is pretty much my view on goodbye threads from an older general life-view post I made. I tried to cut it down cause it was like 3k words at the time.Do you agree?
I like this. A refuge :) yes.That is the nature of this forum. We've come here to seek refuge with like-minded people until we do the deed.
same actuallyYea, because deep down i really wish i could take the pain away and undo the hurt that has pushed people to this point. I really wish I could make everyone here, including myself, happy.
Yes I've been researching obscure subjects like this before I ever considered CTB. For example I google nearly every day xxxx date mass shooting or "mass shooting today " to get a window into the chaotic hellscape out thereI think suicides are vastly under-reported due to stigma - unless it's a teenager - whereas murder-suicides are always reported. I am morbidly curious about suicide, so I google "suicide news" every day, and i can attest that there is at least one case of murder-suicide every single day somewhere in the US. It's usually always by firearms and the majority involve married couples. It's usually always the husband killing the wife and then turning the gun on himself. Sometimes entire families are taken out, or it's one parent taking children along for the bus ride. The only ones that seem to make any sense to me are when elderly couples decide to leave together.