i feel unworthy of suicide

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everyone on here has had crazy bad things happen to them or been in horrible situations and ive been in some things but no where near as bad as some of yall. like i was bullied as a kid and and did SH cause of that and im depressed and super lonely and dont have friends and a few other things that i dont wanna discuss, but nothing as bad as some of these threads. like people talking about rape and chronic pain and physical abuse etc but none of that has happened to me. i feel like if anyone gets a successful attempt it should be them, not me. im just a pushover compared to them. anyone else feel this way?

 

[imreadyplayerone]

that's because you and I aren't like them

they people commit because they have had terrible thing done to them.

you and I are just terrible people, we are failures nothing more. our suffering isn't even valid so if anything it just reinforces how selfish you are and that you will die and they will continue to suffer.

but in truth they don't care about you, like you don't really care about you them.

the fact that we are "unworthy" is all the more reason we should kill ourselves.

 

[interna]

..ya, you don't Need justification for pain. if you're considering suicide, you're suicidal, and you should be taken just as seriously as anyone else. it's not a competition. we all wanna die/have complicated feelings towards death n that's all there is

as someone who was abused n stuff i dont really see u as a pushover or weak or selfish something. just yet another person suffering.......no one can tell you how to feel...... whatever happened to you, it clearly affects you Enough to be here. you don't have to prove anything to anyone

 

[sacrilegeofsouls]

everyone on here has had crazy bad things happen to them or been in horrible situations and ive been in some things but no where near as bad as some of yall. like i was bullied as a kid and and did SH cause of that and im depressed and super lonely and dont have friends and a few other things that i dont wanna discuss, but nothing as bad as some of these threads. like people talking about rape and chronic pain and physical abuse etc but none of that has happened to me. i feel like if anyone gets a successful attempt it should be them, not me. im just a pushover compared to them. anyone else feel this way?

Well Have you ever been in a dark room For a long time And then went to a normally lit place? And your eyes hurt,You get flashed you try to close your eyes it feels so bright. Even though it's normal lighting that everyone is used to you're not used to it because your eyes have been in the dark so long they've adjusted to it.
Well pain is kind of like that it's not just about what the struggle is but how sensitive you are to that struggle. A rich boy sheltered his whole life will suffer alot more when forced to live out a poor farmer lifestyle than a farmer who's been poor his whole life who knows nothing but poverty just like you in the dark coming into the light are suffering. The farmer is used to the light the rich boy isnt. So you know you never really know how much someone is suffering even if it looks trivial on the surface even if the events of their life look pretty tame on the surface maybe they were in the dark so long that they're extra sensitive to those events? They could truly be feeling terrible things.